Soooo I haven't updated this in forever, but I really just don't care anymore.
All I'm trying to do is piece my life back together and figure out where I want it to go.
Write fifteen different statements intended towards fifteen different people- never tell them it was about them, or say something that you wouldn't say to their face, or something that you wish you had said but didn't.
...do I even know fifteen people anymore?
1.I really don't mean to let you down as a friend. I know I don't talk to you very much, and I don't always answer you when you try to reach out to me, and I'm sorry if it makes you feel bad. I'm working on it.
2. You are a completely snotty bitch when you are drunk. You act exactly like all the people you say that you hate. Get a life and stop being so hypocritical. Be thankful that you're still married and you have the great life that you do. You're lucky, because you don't deserve it.
3. I am so sorry you are stuck with the life you have. I pray that one day, you'll have the chance to have your dreams come true.
4. Newsflash: You are sixteen. However jaded you think you are, however much you think you've been through, you are still sixteen and know nothing about life. So stop trying to act like you're twenty and enjoy being sixteen.
5. Another newsflash: You are not a tough bitch, you are an emotionally stagnant individual. You hurt me like no one ever has, including Sean thank you very much, and all for what? Exactly.
6. I want you to know how much I care about you, and want to see you thrive and succeed and become that person that I know is in there somewhere, because I've seen him. He's a nice guy.
7. You are completely undreadable. Sometimes I wonder if you really are a good person, or if everything you do has some underhanded, self-serving purpose.
8. I wish everyone could know you the way I do, and see that you are the most wonderful, caring, selfless individual God put on this Earth, and how you make me the luckiest girl in the world that you're all mine. (Bet no one can guess that one!)
9. Just get the fuck over your deep dark issues and start having a life. That's all there is to it. You can't have a life if you're stuck brooding over not having one.
10. You have the worst attitude I've ever seen in someone you're age. I don't know how you'll make it through high school.
11. You're old enough to get a job now. So stop living off your parents and thinking you're not the one responsible for making the decisions in your life.
12. You act like you care about me when you see me, but sometimes I wonder if you really do, or if when I leave you go back to her and laugh and make fun. I really don't know if your concern is genuine.
13. You could have done so much better... but it's about time you did something at all.
14. The best friend anyone could ask for, you always know exactly what I need or don't need to talk about. I hope I'm as good a friend to you as you are to me.
15. Thank you for being patient, understanding, laid-back, and oh yeah- understanding. Unorthodox, crude, and maybe a little too sensitive at times, but still the best anyone could ever ask for.
Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light