pointless
Only had school two days this week. This is not really why I am writing though... Recently I have had an over whelming fear of not graduating. I have been so out of it and it is hard to make myself focus. Granted their is a lot going on right now with my friends...I have let those dark thoughts creep back in. Old feelings of hate and jealousy, things I though I got over but apparently have not are all coming back to me full force not only with friends but with some of my family as well. I need to get out of the high school I can not take just setting their all day, I feel trapped and this does not help me at all. I know I tend to write a lot of melodramatic post on here but this is the only sight that I can do that on the sight I can express my real feelings, on the other sights there are people that I see everyday and family members...I just can not write these things on there because they would freak out. I really do not need to add to the problems that they are already dealing with. I am not very clear on here either as to what is wrong.... There has just been a lot going on recently and I hate having to deal with it all. I am not suicidal I have not been for a very long time. I just feel overwhelmed right now. This was really kind of pointless, so if you read this sorry for wasting your time.