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Murder is nothing I have the HATE I want to dismember destryo I want... die...
I'm drunk and my sister is crying and hurling things around and my empathy is kicking me in the fucking teeth and the rage building up inside i s needs to be put sometwhere where it isn't in me
Sepelling doesn';t bother me right now, I'm ignoring the backspace key. If you're sensitive and don't like gore and HATREEWD then leave now.
The death of all will bring me the happiness I have always dreamed of...
Drteams are... I never dream happy. The happiest dreams I have end with my death, the rest are far more painful and last forever and I feel the pain of a fall from fifty rhousand feet and I scream in pain and rage and feel every drop of emotion on the planet at once
And let me tell you, the anger far outweighs the happiness and love
I wanted
I wan
I want to die
Please, own't someone release from the gorty, painful iron maiden I canll my body
Nothing every good happens in this place of agaony and angst and sadness and RAGE
I want dismember
Evisceration
Clavicles removed from living innocents
I want to rend a babies heart out in front of its family but keep it living then force it to watch me rape and destroy and remove its family from existance. Then I want it to grow in a world of pain and hate and kill everything hit loves
Then when it becomes and adult of despair oand pure loathing I want to put myself inside it and destroy tyhe conciousness and live in nothing but hatred and loss
It would be better than Iwhat I live in at the moment
These things that come to me, these urges and actions aren't I'm not worthy
I've never experienced anything that would make me want to do these things but with the empathy, my curse, I feel the pain of everythone arpound me
Ashley makes me extremely RAGE and want to destroy the raearth slowly and burn and then do it again, making sure everyu living soul lives therough the destruction of it ever over and ovr and over and over and over and over ando ever
And then, when all that pain has been dealth the rage inside me may subside to a dull anger
I don't understand why I want these things, I deserve nothing less than the absoulute destruction of eveyrthing that is inside me, including my love and kindness and hapiness and jhoy and bring abioyut KILL ME
PLEASE FUCKING KILL ME
Oh god I want to die
Nothing in a million liftetimes of hatred could compare to the absoilute loathing of twhat I want to do to everytone and everything and everywhere I wish I coukld be
Nothing will ever satisfyt the FUCK<
FUCK
FUCK
KILL ME
Fck this
I need to go
plasce
and
place
...please...
I'm drunk and my sister is crying and hurling things around and my empathy is kicking me in the fucking teeth and the rage building up inside i s needs to be put sometwhere where it isn't in me
Sepelling doesn';t bother me right now, I'm ignoring the backspace key. If you're sensitive and don't like gore and HATREEWD then leave now.
The death of all will bring me the happiness I have always dreamed of...
Drteams are... I never dream happy. The happiest dreams I have end with my death, the rest are far more painful and last forever and I feel the pain of a fall from fifty rhousand feet and I scream in pain and rage and feel every drop of emotion on the planet at once
And let me tell you, the anger far outweighs the happiness and love
I wanted
I wan
I want to die
Please, own't someone release from the gorty, painful iron maiden I canll my body
Nothing every good happens in this place of agaony and angst and sadness and RAGE
I want dismember
Evisceration
Clavicles removed from living innocents
I want to rend a babies heart out in front of its family but keep it living then force it to watch me rape and destroy and remove its family from existance. Then I want it to grow in a world of pain and hate and kill everything hit loves
Then when it becomes and adult of despair oand pure loathing I want to put myself inside it and destroy tyhe conciousness and live in nothing but hatred and loss
It would be better than Iwhat I live in at the moment
These things that come to me, these urges and actions aren't I'm not worthy
I've never experienced anything that would make me want to do these things but with the empathy, my curse, I feel the pain of everythone arpound me
Ashley makes me extremely RAGE and want to destroy the raearth slowly and burn and then do it again, making sure everyu living soul lives therough the destruction of it ever over and ovr and over and over and over and over ando ever
And then, when all that pain has been dealth the rage inside me may subside to a dull anger
I don't understand why I want these things, I deserve nothing less than the absoulute destruction of eveyrthing that is inside me, including my love and kindness and hapiness and jhoy and bring abioyut KILL ME
PLEASE FUCKING KILL ME
Oh god I want to die
Nothing in a million liftetimes of hatred could compare to the absoilute loathing of twhat I want to do to everytone and everything and everywhere I wish I coukld be
Nothing will ever satisfyt the FUCK<
FUCK
FUCK
KILL ME
Fck this
I need to go
plasce
and
place
...please...