Decked Out in Plaid
Today is one of those special days! Or else I wouldn't being writing an entry this early. I haven't written a lot of LJ entries, because frankly there is to much to say and nothing to say at all.
I dunno, I should have written an LJ entry before today. Okay, I should start off easy. I saw the VS Fashion Show on Tuesday, and it was way better than all thier past fashion shows to me. It was constructed like a real fashion show, they had segments with different themes. They also had a larger variety of models! they used a lot of the high fashion models I liked. All in all it was really good show, it seemed like it flew by. On the subject about TV, I haven't seen the HP trailer yet! Danielle and Alisa has seen it, however I hadn't! ARGH!
I'm amazed that its december, and that midterms are coming and that christmas is coming. Part of me won't acknowledge it yet. Its so strange, and not because of the wheather. Now that I look on it, I'm happy that its december, it shows that things are actually moving, that I'm actually getting through school. School is the heavier thing. I don't like it. Usually I would avoid it like the plague, come in late or don't come in at all. BUT I have been gettin to school on time for the past month (geee, I wonder why?) and hopefully I will continue to keep coming on time everyday. My classes are hard. I don't like many of them. I really want to see if I could switch out of Physics. I don't need to be there, and its taking to much withought giving me the results I expect. I give up on it. Acting is a whole different subject. I like Acting, but recently it hasn't been as amazing as usual. Sometimes I dread going there, which is fucked up because its suppose to be my favoritel I think I lost my ability to act, and its taking a toll on my self-esteem or confidence, something because I use to be so good last year, What happened? I dunno, and I'm starting to become really afraid that part of me doesn't care. I love acting and now, for the first time I'm truelly doubting myself. I have never gotten a poor on any of my acting sheets ever, until this year, I thought I would cry, but I just didn't. I don't understyand why I didn't. Maybe I'm tired, i dunno. I need to get my act together and bacome as good as last year. Off the subject of school work I'm happy. I smile more, and I'm nicer to people. I also had a lot of optimism! I became more optomistic about things. But now its like I was so happy for the past month and Friday, the night I went to see the play was perfect. I *heart* it! I had a blast! It was just lovely. My head was in the clouds alot because of that. I should have realized then, however I didn't I felt like everything was perfect, I was happy, optomistic, and having fun.
Today I thought it would be cold, so I told Donovan to wear a jacket, but today was hot as hell, I really shouldn't listen to the news. YOU KNOW WHAT? FUCK THE NEWS! Or maybe I really shouldn't repeat information given to me by the news, TOMMOROW IS SUPPOSE TO BE COLD! Anyways today I decided to wear my plaid school girl outfit. I dressed it up with black knee highs, and a black under-skirt. I wore cute pig-tails and did my eye make up extra special. I love the fact that plaid is back! Now I have to go find some green plaid. I love the red, so I should love the green!
On a less cheerful note, I thnk that my optomism has subsided. I think that I did something wrong or that I dunno, all I know is that it is possible that everything is not okay. I wish that I'm wrong.
