Sleepless night.
Its less than 12 hours before im on an aeroplane leaving singapore. Ive been bawling my eyes out for the past hour and its so hard to not think about leaving. It is kinda strange to think that the people around you and the things you always do with them, will no longer be the same.
Sometimes i wonder why he has to be always out with his friends till late at night, doing whatever he wants and not caring much about what my parents or i feel. I know being with friends is important but i just think that there should be a limit as to how far u need to go to see them. I realized today, that he has become so emotionally attached to them and its something that i would have done long time ago. He use to tell me i cared for my friends more than my family.. But now its the other way around. I felt really hurt when i saw him in so much pain. I feel like my heart is heavy and it makes me feel troubled and suffocated inside even if i know that il see these people again. Its a different story for him. He might not get to come back and i know that uncertainty makes him feel even more miserable. Although im not as close as i use to be with him.. I still care because no matter what he still is my little brother. What can u do but cry when u see him cry.
Sometimss i wonder why everyone we love cant be around and living together or at lwasr some what close. I hate moving and leaving people. I hate goodbyes and i really hate the airport. Why do we make close friends, only to leave them after?
Im going to miss each and every one of the people on this little island that i got to know and become close to. Thank you girls from psb especially rodney, vincent, nicholas and george for all those fun and hilarious times! I will especially miss you guys! Love you guys :( im so sad to leave you with tonnes of assignments! I actually wish i was worrying and panicking about it together with you guys :(
Im going to miss b. Ive seen u almost every single day, minus the that week u had to go for army.. And now were gna be apart for so long. Im kinda scared about it too..but thankz for taking care of me and everythin u did for me.. Im thankful to have met a wonderful person like u.
So this 4-6 months without u guys is truly sad for me.. I know some people think that its such a short time only and that im being so dramatic over it, but it still seriousky hurts ok. This kinda thing can only be understood if u go through it too.
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