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In the past years, I've approched my birthday with a kind of dread, because i knew that Christmas was only a week away, and its a big deal with my family.. and also happiness, at being another year older, and another year wiser.. My birthday, being so close to the winter solstice, i also find it a spiritual time as well.. .
This year, i've been stretched to a new level of thinness, in between working 50-60 hours a week, and trying to find time with my special people.. R working in the early mornings, and me working mostly in the afternoons/evenings has been playing a bit of a toll on our relationship.. not to mention his mother moving away last month wasn't very helpful..
And D, who i have known since i was four years old, is back from iraq and Germany, where he is stationed in the Army. Having him around has brought great happiness to me for the holiday season.. I had a fantastic yule celebration with him, and our friends, at the Universalist Church a few days before my birthday.. it was so refreshing to have someone to celebrate that holiday with, i look foward to spending more time with J and B and their daughter, K.
as i begin my 23rd year, i'm thinking more about my life, and what i am going to do with it.. a very good friend of mine once said that these years between 18 and 25 are the most important, these are the years that shape who you will be.. i'm finding i didn't much like who i was 3 years ago, but i realized that in order to appreciate who i am to become, i must find who i am not. and move to change it.
i also realized that becoming older, means i'm ready to face bigger adventures.. moving far away doesnt seem so daunting as it did, or moving to the city, the world is opening up for me in a way that i didn;t realize it could
This year, i've been stretched to a new level of thinness, in between working 50-60 hours a week, and trying to find time with my special people.. R working in the early mornings, and me working mostly in the afternoons/evenings has been playing a bit of a toll on our relationship.. not to mention his mother moving away last month wasn't very helpful..
And D, who i have known since i was four years old, is back from iraq and Germany, where he is stationed in the Army. Having him around has brought great happiness to me for the holiday season.. I had a fantastic yule celebration with him, and our friends, at the Universalist Church a few days before my birthday.. it was so refreshing to have someone to celebrate that holiday with, i look foward to spending more time with J and B and their daughter, K.
as i begin my 23rd year, i'm thinking more about my life, and what i am going to do with it.. a very good friend of mine once said that these years between 18 and 25 are the most important, these are the years that shape who you will be.. i'm finding i didn't much like who i was 3 years ago, but i realized that in order to appreciate who i am to become, i must find who i am not. and move to change it.
i also realized that becoming older, means i'm ready to face bigger adventures.. moving far away doesnt seem so daunting as it did, or moving to the city, the world is opening up for me in a way that i didn;t realize it could