GOD DAMN IT!!!!!!
I wanna be able to move on from this. I dont want the pain to be there when it enters my mind again. I wish it never happened. It has left some scars on my soul, and her name reopens them. All i can think is how i dont want him touching me for a while after i remember and how he should have tought about his actions and ideas a bit more before bringing them to life (maybe not all the way but far enough to hurt).