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Even though no one really uses live journal Im here just to post something like a journal so I have some place to put it down.
Ok so this is how it is going to go. Im lonely. Wish I had something to do besides work. I am stuck in a rut. I think I may not be able to be there for my friends soon because I need a change, I think i may need to just be a hermit fully again. because being out as much as I am is just not helping. I think i may need just me time. or maybe I just may need to get away from it all. just go and leave this place I call home and start a new. find new friends and find a new me. why am i going through this right now with no help it seems. I am always there for other people but them for me not.... I have to bare this all to myself. and figure out how to fix it by myself all the time.
Maybe after the summer I will go and see if i can go and move in with my g-ma and pay rent for the top floor of her house. so then i can sort of be more on my own and do stuff in a way that I want to do. but that may not work since she sees me as being like 14 instead of 20 almost about o be 21.
UGHHHHHHH someone please HELP ME!!!!!!
Ok so this is how it is going to go. Im lonely. Wish I had something to do besides work. I am stuck in a rut. I think I may not be able to be there for my friends soon because I need a change, I think i may need to just be a hermit fully again. because being out as much as I am is just not helping. I think i may need just me time. or maybe I just may need to get away from it all. just go and leave this place I call home and start a new. find new friends and find a new me. why am i going through this right now with no help it seems. I am always there for other people but them for me not.... I have to bare this all to myself. and figure out how to fix it by myself all the time.
Maybe after the summer I will go and see if i can go and move in with my g-ma and pay rent for the top floor of her house. so then i can sort of be more on my own and do stuff in a way that I want to do. but that may not work since she sees me as being like 14 instead of 20 almost about o be 21.
UGHHHHHHH someone please HELP ME!!!!!!