so many highs and lows, I'm not sure whether to duck or jump!

[wiccanlou]

I found out last week that a person I considered to be the nearest thing I had to a dad had died. He died in april but it had taken a while for the family to find us to tell us as he never left any numbers for any of us about. Ican't believe he is actually gone, it was only a few years ago that he was playing football and squash. He died at 69 I never thought it would happen and I miss him terribly which is another thing I didn't think would happen.
My mum was bequethed (I think thats how its spelt) the flat and all its chattells, whatever that actually means and she is ever so happy about that. my brother is rubbing his hands with glee with the thought he might get something for nothing.
We went there yesterday and as soon as I got out the cab I burst into the tears, I hadn't been there is ages.
My mum also inhertited the car but she doesn't drive so she gave it to me, I hate it but like it at the same time. I feel bad for feeling good about getting it, its weird. I got something for nothing and I don't like that feeling at all I like to feel that I have earned it and worked for it. His niece said that we did earn it as we gave him the nearest he could have ever have to a family of his own but it still feels wrong.
anyway I'm gonna go get a hug off my Steve cause I need it to feel better.

Bye bye for now peeps

Louise