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I hate when he tells me he loves me, because I know it's the truth.
This hellish existence, this shitty relationship, the lying, the cheating, the pain, it's the best he has to offer. I don't know why that is, but I know I deserve better.
Why is it so hard to leave? Maybe the problem isn't how hard it is to leave, but how easy it is to stay.
I wish I had someone to love me the way I need to be loved. If I had someone like that, I know I'd feel secure enough to leave this place, but I know as long I'm here I'm never going to find that person to love me. So screw it, I can't look to others for strength, it is important for me to be self reliant.
I dunno, I'm tired.
This hellish existence, this shitty relationship, the lying, the cheating, the pain, it's the best he has to offer. I don't know why that is, but I know I deserve better.
Why is it so hard to leave? Maybe the problem isn't how hard it is to leave, but how easy it is to stay.
I wish I had someone to love me the way I need to be loved. If I had someone like that, I know I'd feel secure enough to leave this place, but I know as long I'm here I'm never going to find that person to love me. So screw it, I can't look to others for strength, it is important for me to be self reliant.
I dunno, I'm tired.