So I guess this is a thing I do now...
Every time that I'm talking to someone via text or messenger and I say something that they then don't respond too for awhile be it 10 mins or hours. My mind will instantly go to worse case scenario. Then it's just an endless spiral downwards or how much said person is angry at me or is done with me.
It's an almost constant feeling of Did I say the wrong thing? Was I to blunt? Did I take something to far?
Even on occasions that I look back and re-read what I said and don't see anything wrong with it. Part of me still feels all the blame is on me. Even if the other person is in the wrong as well.
I am just so insecure when it comes to friendships now a days. I know why...but even knowing the root of my issues still doesn't help calm my thoughts when stuff like this happens.
Part of me knows I'm blowing things way out of proportion but the other part of me is like "yeah you could be but what if you're not and they really are super mad at you!? It's happened before and you weren't prepared at all so better to be prepared then to be caught unawares."
So now every time it happens I just mentally prepare myself for my friend to leave me, just like all the other times.
It's an almost constant feeling of Did I say the wrong thing? Was I to blunt? Did I take something to far?
Even on occasions that I look back and re-read what I said and don't see anything wrong with it. Part of me still feels all the blame is on me. Even if the other person is in the wrong as well.
I am just so insecure when it comes to friendships now a days. I know why...but even knowing the root of my issues still doesn't help calm my thoughts when stuff like this happens.
Part of me knows I'm blowing things way out of proportion but the other part of me is like "yeah you could be but what if you're not and they really are super mad at you!? It's happened before and you weren't prepared at all so better to be prepared then to be caught unawares."
So now every time it happens I just mentally prepare myself for my friend to leave me, just like all the other times.