Quotes, in lieu of actual journaling
a work in progress
I'm still trying to make my mind up / am I free or am I tied up / I change shapes just to hide in this place but I'm still, I'm still an animal / nobody knows it but me when I slip yeah I slip / I'm still an animal
Miike Snow, "Animal"
My mind is all / my mind is all / my mind is all / gone
Portugal. the Man, "My Mind"
This can't be living now / if so then show me how
Portugal. the Man, "Got it All (This Can't be Living)"
As the world revolves the sun / I hope the light that I become / can sleep for once
Portugal. the Man, "Sleep Forever"
I just want to sleep forever / never see tomorrow / or lead or follow / I don't want to work forever / know what I know / beg or borrow
Portugal. the Man, "Sleep Forever"
Don't need no preacher / to make us believe / that everything's perfectly / fucked up like me
Portugal. the Man, "Sleep Forever"
There's a madness in us all
Portugal. the Man, "So American"
Boy, we can do much more together / Better get it right, get it right, get it right, get it right / Boy, we can do much more together / Better give love, give love, give love, give love/ Boy, we can do much more together / better get it right, get it right get it right, get it right / Boy, we can do much more together it's not so impossible / It's not so impossible / It's a long life, better pinch yourself / Get your face together, better roll along / It's a long life, better pinch yourself / Put your face together, better stand up straight / It's a long life only one last chance / Couldn't get much better, do you wanna dance?
Sufjan Steves, "Impossible Soul"
Sad inconsistencies we see / when you find yourself lonely / but right next to me / well I was there too / just as lonely as you
Portugal. the Man, "Senseless"
Come on skinny love / just last the year / pour a little salt / we were never here
Bon Iver, "Skinny Love"
Just because it's real, don't mean it's gonna work / I was out of your league / and you were 20,000 underneath the sea / waiving affections / you were out of my league / at a distance that I didn't want to see / wanted you nearer
The Blow, "True Affection"
I never felt so close / I never felt so all alone
The Blow, "True Affection"
I have tried / my hopes have blossomed and my hopes have fried / I tried to cut them all down / but I found hopes were still living deep inside / like a team of renegade lovers / working long hours, sneaking around / with a belief in the life of our love / like a light at the end of a long tunnel, a struggle
The Blow, "Fists Up!"
It was perfect you know it / just one little problem / the fact that it turns out you don't really want it
The Blow, "Fists Up!"
Now we must pack up every piece / of the life we used to love / just to keep ourselves / at least to carry on
Neutral Milk Hotel, "Holland 1945"
It's a useful dream that makes / quite an entertaining show and not much more / up against and for, either/or
Elliott Smith, "Either/Or"
I look up and smile / a picture of dissatisfaction
Elliott Smith, "New Monkey"
Lazying around, head hanging down / stuck inside my imagination / busy making something from nothing / pictures of hope and depression / anything is better than nothing
Elliott Smith, "New Monkey"
No one said there'd be times like these
Portugal. the Man, "All Your Light (Times Like These)"
I'd rather feel pain than show fear / I don't wanna make excuses / But my horoscope said it would be a bad year / Sometimes I see myself getting killed / On one of these big scary streets / And then I'd have nothing to live up to / And no expectations to meet / All you wanna do is win when you're losing / You say you want some competition / Well I'm not that strong
Beulah, "My Horoscope Said It Would Be a Bad Year"
I'm in a crisis / I need help / c'mon mood, shift shift back to good again / c'mon mood, shift shift back to good again / c'mon, be a friend / chemicals don't flatten my mind / chemicals don't mess me up this time / though you bait me way more than you should / and it's just like you to hurt me when I'm feeling good / c'mon chemicals
Of Montreal, "Heimdalsgate Like a Promethean Curse"
I’m looking over my shoulder / booking away with nowhere to go / well can’t you just leave me alone? / you’ve already thrown all the sticks and stones you had to send my way / can’t you just leave it at that? / and spare us both the bother cause i just bounced back / anyway, i got nothing that i want to do / more than make another sonic “fuck you” to play
Elliott Smith, "Looking Over My Shoulder"
I'm still trying to make my mind up / am I free or am I tied up / I change shapes just to hide in this place but I'm still, I'm still an animal / nobody knows it but me when I slip yeah I slip / I'm still an animal
Miike Snow, "Animal"
My mind is all / my mind is all / my mind is all / gone
Portugal. the Man, "My Mind"
This can't be living now / if so then show me how
Portugal. the Man, "Got it All (This Can't be Living)"
As the world revolves the sun / I hope the light that I become / can sleep for once
Portugal. the Man, "Sleep Forever"
I just want to sleep forever / never see tomorrow / or lead or follow / I don't want to work forever / know what I know / beg or borrow
Portugal. the Man, "Sleep Forever"
Don't need no preacher / to make us believe / that everything's perfectly / fucked up like me
Portugal. the Man, "Sleep Forever"
There's a madness in us all
Portugal. the Man, "So American"
Boy, we can do much more together / Better get it right, get it right, get it right, get it right / Boy, we can do much more together / Better give love, give love, give love, give love/ Boy, we can do much more together / better get it right, get it right get it right, get it right / Boy, we can do much more together it's not so impossible / It's not so impossible / It's a long life, better pinch yourself / Get your face together, better roll along / It's a long life, better pinch yourself / Put your face together, better stand up straight / It's a long life only one last chance / Couldn't get much better, do you wanna dance?
Sufjan Steves, "Impossible Soul"
Sad inconsistencies we see / when you find yourself lonely / but right next to me / well I was there too / just as lonely as you
Portugal. the Man, "Senseless"
Come on skinny love / just last the year / pour a little salt / we were never here
Bon Iver, "Skinny Love"
Just because it's real, don't mean it's gonna work / I was out of your league / and you were 20,000 underneath the sea / waiving affections / you were out of my league / at a distance that I didn't want to see / wanted you nearer
The Blow, "True Affection"
I never felt so close / I never felt so all alone
The Blow, "True Affection"
I have tried / my hopes have blossomed and my hopes have fried / I tried to cut them all down / but I found hopes were still living deep inside / like a team of renegade lovers / working long hours, sneaking around / with a belief in the life of our love / like a light at the end of a long tunnel, a struggle
The Blow, "Fists Up!"
It was perfect you know it / just one little problem / the fact that it turns out you don't really want it
The Blow, "Fists Up!"
Now we must pack up every piece / of the life we used to love / just to keep ourselves / at least to carry on
Neutral Milk Hotel, "Holland 1945"
It's a useful dream that makes / quite an entertaining show and not much more / up against and for, either/or
Elliott Smith, "Either/Or"
I look up and smile / a picture of dissatisfaction
Elliott Smith, "New Monkey"
Lazying around, head hanging down / stuck inside my imagination / busy making something from nothing / pictures of hope and depression / anything is better than nothing
Elliott Smith, "New Monkey"
No one said there'd be times like these
Portugal. the Man, "All Your Light (Times Like These)"
I'd rather feel pain than show fear / I don't wanna make excuses / But my horoscope said it would be a bad year / Sometimes I see myself getting killed / On one of these big scary streets / And then I'd have nothing to live up to / And no expectations to meet / All you wanna do is win when you're losing / You say you want some competition / Well I'm not that strong
Beulah, "My Horoscope Said It Would Be a Bad Year"
I'm in a crisis / I need help / c'mon mood, shift shift back to good again / c'mon mood, shift shift back to good again / c'mon, be a friend / chemicals don't flatten my mind / chemicals don't mess me up this time / though you bait me way more than you should / and it's just like you to hurt me when I'm feeling good / c'mon chemicals
Of Montreal, "Heimdalsgate Like a Promethean Curse"
I’m looking over my shoulder / booking away with nowhere to go / well can’t you just leave me alone? / you’ve already thrown all the sticks and stones you had to send my way / can’t you just leave it at that? / and spare us both the bother cause i just bounced back / anyway, i got nothing that i want to do / more than make another sonic “fuck you” to play
Elliott Smith, "Looking Over My Shoulder"