and every moment extends endlessly, feels as though time is in a movie
Today I was sat in front of my laptop in the library for HOURS doing a philosophy assignment. My eyes hurt so much. It was on Dosteovsky's Notes from the Undergroud, and because the campus bookshop people are knobs and can't get it ordered in, I downloaded it, just so I could read it until I got the book. So there I am, reading the copy off of the laptop screen... reading the lecturer's notes... writing my essay... eyes bleeding and crossing all the while. And I purposely brought my old laptop that doesn have wireless so I wouldn't surf the net and procrastinate. Yes, I got work done, but I will also unfortunately need laser eye surgery now.
I have so much work to catch up on... My brain just doesn't comprehend it anymore. I have erased my capacity to worry. I think when something as big as your brother dying happens... possibly failing some college modules doesn't really register as Greatly Important anymore. This might be a bad thing for my grade point average.
My brain is also totally distracted with ideas for a new original story. I thought of it around Halloween and it's about suburban witches and it's a bit Practical Magic / Charmed, but I'm having so much fun with the huge cast of characters that I can't stop to think if it's a rip-off.
I also feel bad about my epic, never-ending Ten and Rose story, because people are leaving really amazing reviews, not about it being a fan fic about their OTP, but about the quality of writing and the OCs, which is brilliant to hear... and I haven't updated in a month, and have nothing written yet. And I know I have no time or drive to continue the story yet. I thought about abandoning it, but I feel like it's an assignment, something I HAVE to finish. I really don't want to let readers down.
I've been hearing the film title August Rush everywhere and only yesterday did I find out that Keri Russell and John Rhys Meyers are in it, but I still didn't know what it was about until half an hour ago when I watched the trailer. (TRAILER OF AWESOME HERE) I'm hooked. *makes grabby hands* I WANT IT NOW. It better come out over here in a timely fashion. I'm a sucker for inspirational music films, with longing and emo and outpourings of love. See: my obsession with Moulin Rouge, Walk the Line, Phantom of the Opera and others.
And because I'm obviously masochistic, I picked up part 3 of the Twilight series, Eclipse, even though I despise the two main characters with a fiery passion.
I'm only about 150 pages into Eclipse, so don't spoil me!
Edward is locking Bella up, getting her kidnapped by his family, manipulating her father and mother into getting her out of the state and all in all just controlling her in an extremely creepy way, simply to keep her away from her beloved and closest friend Jacob. I can't tell you the fury I have been experiencing over fictional bloody characters as I've read these passages, where Edward makes decisions for her and forces her to do stuff... and Bella, even though she desperately wants to see Jacob, she justs goes along with it. She might sigh and glare a bit, but then a second later she falls into his arms with a swoon and yet again hugs his ice cold body. Don't forget the 'cold' bit, yet again Miss Meyer, we might forget that Edward was a vampire with a body temp of -100 if you didn't mention twice a paragraph in all his scenes.
I made the mistake of looking at some Twilight forums, and there are people actually bitching that they're sickened by the Jacob / Bella scenes, and that they think Jacob is up to something bad or suspicious.
How... HOW can people actually believe in the Edward/Bella ship and cry OTP! over it? They're so tepid and bland. They say over and over how much they love one another... but there's no reason to. What actually attracts them? What makes them so suicidally bonded to one another that they can't possibly even consider anyone else?
Also, on the werewolves imprinting on female mates... PLEASE don't tell me Jacob's imprinted on Bella. PLEASE. How the frilly fuck has this girl got TWO supernatural, mythological creatures falling for her as their eternal soul mate??!!!!
Please, for all that's good and holy, give Jacob his own love interest! Don't continue with this Bella-is-so-brilliant schtick, author lady. It just ain't working. Bella's an ass. And you're making the lovely Jacob look like one by loving her when she has zero feelings for him.
And why has Stephenia Meyer made it so rigidly a Bella/Edward romance only? If Bella was swayed by Jacob in the slightest, if she responded to his almighty hotness, passion and love just one bit... it might actually be a compelling romance. The triangle would be absolutely awesome and I might actually feel something for her Edward love if I saw her connecting romantically with Jacob too, if I saw her torn between the two.
But that's not gonna happen, and I hate to see Jacob mooning over her. If he actually got a girlfriend though, Bella's reaction would be hilarious. Even though she doesn't want him, she wouldn't want anyone else to want him either, and she'd be all territorial and jealous.
My God. Why am I addicted to this brain melting, juvinile tripe? I can't stop freaking reading it! But I want to stab Edward's stupid face and I want to kick Bella up the ass and tell her to get a life of her own and stop wanting to be a gross blood-sucker for all eternity. UGH.
I'm in it for you Jacob. Thank God for all 6'7" wolfy Native American hotness of you.
I have so much work to catch up on... My brain just doesn't comprehend it anymore. I have erased my capacity to worry. I think when something as big as your brother dying happens... possibly failing some college modules doesn't really register as Greatly Important anymore. This might be a bad thing for my grade point average.
My brain is also totally distracted with ideas for a new original story. I thought of it around Halloween and it's about suburban witches and it's a bit Practical Magic / Charmed, but I'm having so much fun with the huge cast of characters that I can't stop to think if it's a rip-off.
I also feel bad about my epic, never-ending Ten and Rose story, because people are leaving really amazing reviews, not about it being a fan fic about their OTP, but about the quality of writing and the OCs, which is brilliant to hear... and I haven't updated in a month, and have nothing written yet. And I know I have no time or drive to continue the story yet. I thought about abandoning it, but I feel like it's an assignment, something I HAVE to finish. I really don't want to let readers down.
I've been hearing the film title August Rush everywhere and only yesterday did I find out that Keri Russell and John Rhys Meyers are in it, but I still didn't know what it was about until half an hour ago when I watched the trailer. (TRAILER OF AWESOME HERE) I'm hooked. *makes grabby hands* I WANT IT NOW. It better come out over here in a timely fashion. I'm a sucker for inspirational music films, with longing and emo and outpourings of love. See: my obsession with Moulin Rouge, Walk the Line, Phantom of the Opera and others.
And because I'm obviously masochistic, I picked up part 3 of the Twilight series, Eclipse, even though I despise the two main characters with a fiery passion.
I'm only about 150 pages into Eclipse, so don't spoil me!
Edward is locking Bella up, getting her kidnapped by his family, manipulating her father and mother into getting her out of the state and all in all just controlling her in an extremely creepy way, simply to keep her away from her beloved and closest friend Jacob. I can't tell you the fury I have been experiencing over fictional bloody characters as I've read these passages, where Edward makes decisions for her and forces her to do stuff... and Bella, even though she desperately wants to see Jacob, she justs goes along with it. She might sigh and glare a bit, but then a second later she falls into his arms with a swoon and yet again hugs his ice cold body. Don't forget the 'cold' bit, yet again Miss Meyer, we might forget that Edward was a vampire with a body temp of -100 if you didn't mention twice a paragraph in all his scenes.
I made the mistake of looking at some Twilight forums, and there are people actually bitching that they're sickened by the Jacob / Bella scenes, and that they think Jacob is up to something bad or suspicious.
How... HOW can people actually believe in the Edward/Bella ship and cry OTP! over it? They're so tepid and bland. They say over and over how much they love one another... but there's no reason to. What actually attracts them? What makes them so suicidally bonded to one another that they can't possibly even consider anyone else?
Also, on the werewolves imprinting on female mates... PLEASE don't tell me Jacob's imprinted on Bella. PLEASE. How the frilly fuck has this girl got TWO supernatural, mythological creatures falling for her as their eternal soul mate??!!!!
Please, for all that's good and holy, give Jacob his own love interest! Don't continue with this Bella-is-so-brilliant schtick, author lady. It just ain't working. Bella's an ass. And you're making the lovely Jacob look like one by loving her when she has zero feelings for him.
And why has Stephenia Meyer made it so rigidly a Bella/Edward romance only? If Bella was swayed by Jacob in the slightest, if she responded to his almighty hotness, passion and love just one bit... it might actually be a compelling romance. The triangle would be absolutely awesome and I might actually feel something for her Edward love if I saw her connecting romantically with Jacob too, if I saw her torn between the two.
But that's not gonna happen, and I hate to see Jacob mooning over her. If he actually got a girlfriend though, Bella's reaction would be hilarious. Even though she doesn't want him, she wouldn't want anyone else to want him either, and she'd be all territorial and jealous.
My God. Why am I addicted to this brain melting, juvinile tripe? I can't stop freaking reading it! But I want to stab Edward's stupid face and I want to kick Bella up the ass and tell her to get a life of her own and stop wanting to be a gross blood-sucker for all eternity. UGH.
I'm in it for you Jacob. Thank God for all 6'7" wolfy Native American hotness of you.