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Scared of this feeling proceeding through my body, mind and heart. Feeling weak, like im losing to myself. thoughts of the past circle through my mind constantly making me wonder why. Scared. no. Terrified of what will happen next, will i surender to the harsh reality of my weak mind? or conquer the feelings i call my enemy. Trying my hardest to hide the pain and tears through a fake smile. Slowly loseing the shine of the smile. Fighting hard striving for life alone kills me inside to know that some one could be so sick inside. but knowing that someone is me makes the pain even worse. not knowing what to do, i sit and think for days on end, yet nothing ever changes thoughts get worse. This is torture yet no one seems to understand. somtimes i wish just wish that someone else out there could be feeling this feeling i am and understand the pain i do . This enemy inside is not anyone but myself. stupid. i dont know. why this has to be me. good question. ? . the weekness fails to kill but progress throught out my mind. I will not surrender to this enemy. anything but that. if i choose anything to happen it will be to get stronger from this enemy so once and for all i am done with playing around. the enemy will not hurt me anymore. once and for all i WILL be FREE. my mind will be free. Once and for all.
blahhhh
life.
live.
long.
love.
<3
blahhhh
life.
live.
long.
love.
<3