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God I wish that I could change who I am. Change how I feel about people and myself. I would be so much better off if I developed a thicker skin and stopped caring so much. Stopped caring about what people thought about me. Stopped caring and just let my feelings be made known and let the fur fly.
But then again I feel so much better caring instead of not caring, I have found out in the last year that feeling everything and keeping it to myself is second best to feeling nothing at all.
Letting everything out is still the next step in my growth cycle. But that takes a lot of trust and the right person to do it with, one that really wants to know how I feel and wants to still be the person to love me and be with me when I am done letting it out.
But then again I feel so much better caring instead of not caring, I have found out in the last year that feeling everything and keeping it to myself is second best to feeling nothing at all.
Letting everything out is still the next step in my growth cycle. But that takes a lot of trust and the right person to do it with, one that really wants to know how I feel and wants to still be the person to love me and be with me when I am done letting it out.