May 23, 2001 19:33
bear with me, as this is my first journal that Ive ever kept, let alone one online. I guess I should just spill it. heh. A friend of mine linked me here so here I am. Ive never really thought about what a friend is untill riecently. and after alot of reminiscing, I realized, untill reicently, Ive never had any true friends. there has only been one person in my life (other than family) that has kept in contact with me for more than say a year. let alone 2. well, Jason is one of the people I truly call a friend, Ive known him since 96, and we have never lost contact even though in the past 5 years, Ive moved through 2 states, and roughly 9 towns. Being across the country from your only best friend kinda sucks. especially when they have a crisis and there is no way for you to be there for him. the most I can do is hold a phone. You know, I never understood what it meant to love a friend as that and not as anything more, untill now. I would do anything for him (wouldnt marry him but I would do anything to cheer him up hehehe) I only wish I could find more like him. If you've ever had people you thought were your friends turn their backs on you, you would understand why I love jason for who he is. out of all my friends I had in California, HE is the only one that still talks to me, and never says anything bad about me (unless its true, then he tells me first heh) K backround check for a moment: had alot of christian friends, they found out that I was studying wicca and they turned their backs, ie: wouldnt return my calls, emails or anything. it was like I never existed. now that you understand what I went through, you know what brought this about heheh.