surprise
So I’ve had quite the adventure last night at 11 at night. I finally got in bed and realized my car was still in snow lot and if I were to leave it there I would be ticketed in the morning. On any ordinary night, I would be way too tired to crawl back down the ladder throw on some clothes, go down the stairs and move my car but last night I was wide awake. It was rainy and muggy yesterday and coffee seemed like the best drink to drink at that time. I had a cup around 6pm and I figured that I’d be fine as far as sleeping goes. I was wrong though. Nikki and I went to the gym around 2 or 3 then came back and showered. Erin, Nikki and I decided that we’d have a little girls night and get our hw done so we could watch a movie. I had my computer out on the futon and of course we all ended up looking at our old facebook pics. It was great. Somehow we got on the topic of birth control and I just sat and listened and nodded. Then we got talking, well they got talking about their first times and what not and well it was a good, somewhat odd conversation but Im really glad it happened. I feel like I’ve realized that I really do no wrong. I’m a sophomore in college and I have yet to get wasted or what not… I have yet to have A drink. Aimee called and wanted to come over… I have no idea why but that’s what she did. We all sat around and watched prestige. It was pretty good cept I missed a few parts cuz aimee was on the phone. The movie got over at like 10:30ish which was way later than I planned on going to bed but oh well. Then I called greg and I had to use the land line because my phone got wet at that game on Saturday. It kills me cuz my phone got a few drops on it and it got all fucked up. Like seriously? But luckily today it finally is acting normal thank the lord. Sometimes I want to wait till Im married and a lot of times I don’t. I feel like I’m that 1% that gets pregnant while using birth control. That would be my luck. I’d be like….. TOLD YA SO!! I kinda want to talk to my mom about sex in general but I haven’t quite figured out how Im going to come about it. I feel like everyone I know has had sex which is fine but my mom doesn’t know that and I want her to. This probably sounds really cliché but almost everything I do I think “what would Jesus do in this situation”. Life is hard. I’m working really hard to pull my butt out of bed at 6:30 in the morning the run over to the gym before class. But I don’t feel like Im doing anything. I’m probably not eating as well as I could be. I’m trying. I want to be wild and crazy. I don’t want to be this girl that I am that is boring and has no fun crazy stories to share with her roommates. Band is good. Except for my friend D. He ignores me now and it makes me sorta sad. I kind of blew him off a couple weeks ago and now everything’s different. I don’t think he realizes how much I appreciate his friendship. Oh well. My photography class was extremely frustrating today. I took 3 pictures and they were either way over exposed or way under exposed…. all black or all white. It was really depressing and discouraging. Now I gotta go in on my own time and take pictures. GAH. I love the life that I have created for myself. no joke After a lot of thought and worrying, I’ve come to the conclusion that the rumor about greg is not true. I love him so much and I’ve come so attached to him. We are great. Its time for bed. My roomies think Im crazy for going to bed so early but its nice. Its me. college is good by the way. goodnight.