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[whypeachwhy]

i have been so low latly. as many might know my grandmother passed away just the other day...adn its hitting me a lot harder than i thought it would. i find myself not being able to be happy because i cant take my mind off of what happened, that day and that song, that last breath. I will be dandy one moment, then i find myself crying. nothing will have to trigger me it will just happen.
I'm the one person who tryes to make others who are crying or sad to laugh. but it seems like laughter is so far away.

i want a fish...random i know but, I want one! and unlike danyele i will feed mine=)