[After reading
this entry]
I really wish everyone would just stop with this whole Jack the Ripper business. Let it go.
[Private - Readable to Cygna, Bianca, Janelle, CJ, Jonas, Seith, Christian, and David]
After reading that girl Ciara's entry, I found that kind of offensive, not that anyone would know why. I mean, I'm not an open book when it comes to talking about my life pre-adoption. It's hard thinking about it.
I'm not encouraging prostitution but my mother did what she had to do. And unfortunately, they took me away from her for that. We had a hard life and what else could she do but turn to that. She had a 9-year old, and three jobs and no guy in the picture. My father ran off before I was even born and is now a famous soccer star in England. And my mother had to give up her dreams and her life to take care of her mistake. Which was me. So when that Ciara girl put that picture in her journal? What a stir-up of bad memories.
I don't know. It's making me kind of depressed thinking about what a bad childhood I had. I was around drugs and prostitution, all just so that my mother could keep us afloat. And now look at Janae. She's in some rehab clinic for crackpots somewhere in the mountains.
I just want all this business about prostitutes and Jack the Ripper to stop. I don't want to think about my mother anymore. I was getting pretty good at not thinking about it too.