Honestly I don't know anymore...
Last night my grandmother died...today I had PSAT's and then drama with Wayne Kate Sam Tom Peter Matt and Corey started. I'm upset and with no one to talk to. So now Matt Corey and Peter are at the police station. Great. Already peice of shit day gets worse. This is not good not good at all. Not to mention that my face is breaking out of course just my luck. Fuck stress and school and all that good shit. Not to mention Tyler Cluff left our school :(. I feel like a failure. I tried to help Wayne's ass out of this damn shit and he isn't even greatful. Well I hope he does go to jail because of this shit. He will know how it feels to get done up the ass and that was mean and I don't care. I had to run the mile today and that sucked. After the PSAT's I had a huge science test that I am almost positive I failed. I'm freezing. This sucks and yes I know I complain alot and if you have anything to say that is mean you can just shove it. I miss summer when there wasn't fucking drama and I was tan and with Jen at the beach and in New York. Today I threw up five times and cried and had a panic attack. I am not sure that today could get much worse. Well it probably could but let's hope it doesn't....make that six times. Not even Peaches is cheering me up. And today had potential to be good but no it wasn't... I think I should just give up. This year nothing has really gone right. Oh well I got a kid a home coming date today so I guess that's good. I'm exahusted mentaly and physicaly. I don't know if I am going to make it through this week. Oh yeah and my dad isn't going to be home for H C or my birthday well you know what FUCK YOU DAD! Not like he remembers my birthday anyway. *Shrug* maybe the world would be better without a fuck up like me. I swear that things have kept going down hill for me. I am about to go shoot shit at trees who knows maybe even my legs or something. What ever will make me feel better. Yeah the leg sounds more amusing.. I think that this band should be shot they suck ass. What ever I am being a bitch to myself and I don't care. Something tells me that I will not be sleeping tonight. What else is new? Oh yeah nothing because I am afraid to go to sleep. Oh well I have a shit load of Algebra homework anyway. I guess that's good that I will be a little occupied because if I wasn't I would be thinking too much. Thats bad when I think if you didn't know. I hate that I am alone so much it sucks no one to talk to. Just sit here. What ever I give up on trying to be happy it's not worth it. I just get shot down every time I am the least bit happy. Wow...I am a failure...