Jun 25, 2005 23:43
i could be in a better mood. :-(
i feel like crying.... ? ? i am confused
i am sad because im moving and the person i wanna be closest to is trying to keep me away
i feel like im being pushed away.. and i dont wanna go
if this whole moving thing backfires and we end up staying in VA.. i wouldnt really mind... cuz my life is falling apart
mayb this is y im sad.
im sad because i feel like talking to a very special person to me and i kinda got... rejectet and i wuznt shur y but it sounded like sumthin wuz wrong..
and now that ive done nuttin but think it over fer the past... *looks at watch* 45 min.?.. i think ive got a purdy good idea wut the problem is.
Soooooooo... now i REALLY wanna talk to this special person and now i think it may be too late to call her house phone... and i dont remember the cell off the top of my head.. and if i did i think her sis. has it anyway. :-(... im really sad.
if the special person happens to read this tonight i wouldnt mind her calling josh's cell so we can talk.. tonight. wah.
they say if u really love some1 u should let them go... [or sumthin like that] well i guess i could let go.. but i want EVERYTHING to be right b4 i go..
so thats wut im thinkin bout now.
bye.
p.s.- april, it made me happy seeing u fri. nite. u are a nifty [thats MY word!] person too and u should no that. im glad i finally found your house.. even if we only got to talk fer about 10, 15 min.
if there are any ppl who dont no who this whole update wuz about... ill give u 1 hint.. cuz i luv teasing ppl. its fun. her initials are a.n.t. mwaha