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[whyher]

I am not happy lately. I should be. I dropped 35 pounds... I love my job.. I have some solid friends... and I have a pretty good head on my shoulders. Obviously I need an x factor. That obviously is in the nature of the opposite sex. I get myself in and can't seem to get myself out.  It just messes me up as petty as it sounds but all of us can relate to something... even the smallest thing getting under our skin. I feel my pride's gotten slighted. I sit and wait and I'd love to say this isen't like me, but truth of the matter is.. i'm waiting because I'm hoping. Hoping for this time around to be different. Hoping for this time around to invest in someone for the right reasons. I just want to be happy. I know that it's not going to make me happier in reality but I think that until I shake out the notion that I need someone to provide me with a little happiness that I'll need it. Desperately need it. Need anything, SOMETHING. I need to wrap my head around my ego and realize that age should not make me all the more bitter.

Call me jaded but when will it all make sense?

Sooooooo, we are bringing in Ill Scarlet in November. I'm hoping to go see Tokeyo Police Club in January and Raine from Our lady peace.I went to see Sarah Sleen and Mandiphall Jandu this Wednesday at the wall.. it was a great show.

this week I've watched 3 seasons of the sopranos. I love escaptism