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[whydaretodream]

i'm in a really bad mood right now. i've been so moody lately and it bothers me. i'm sick of making cookies for that damn party. i don't want to hear my mother and aunt ask me my opinion anymore because i know they don't really care/nothing is going to be done about what i think. the sun isn't worth it, laying out is pointless. i think the heat and the party is getting to me. i'm mad at me and my friends for no good reason. i just want to scream. i'm tempted to do things right now that based on my normal thinking patterns i would be appalled to do. i'm not a fan of this, but i don't know what to change. i'm angry and depressed and i think some of it is legitimate, but the rest is just coming out of nowhere.
i'm not in the mood to see/hang out/talk to people, i don't want to go to orientation tomorrow. i hope they have a crappy time at girls night. i hope our stupid party just gets rained out. i'm really just not happy with my life and most of the people in it.