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I can't take the scream and yelling for no reason anymore! I am tired of staying up all night wondering if my parents will be together in the morning. They have split up once before, about a year ago, and i hated the feeling of not having two parents to come home to. I wish that my dad would do something about his drinking problem. I hate to see him like this because I know that that is not who he really is. It is like he becomes a hole other person. The alcohol takes over his mind and changes him. He has never hit me or my mom or my sister but when he gets drunk i can never tell what he will do. I have tryed to confront him but he gets pissed off at me so I just think to my self fuck it and walk away. When I here my parents fight it makes me nervous because I always feel that my dad will bust into my room and involve me in it. I can't control my self like my mom can so I would end up hitting him as hard as I could and then get the shit beat out of me by him. I have never told anyone about this and I don't know why. I normally think that it is better to talk about things but I guess that I am just ashamed of it.