Introspection on my aversion to, what I perceive as, whiny 'praise' music
Stuff like,
"...but what can I saaaay?
what can I doooo
but offer this heart oh God
completely to you."
Like, I'll be in church;
and we're singing that;
and I'm only half-hearted in it.
cuz I'm just thinking:
"shit man, give me a break
this is some whiny ass crap."
I'm much more about uptempo stuff
"I will dance I will sing"
or
"Blessed be your name"
stuff like that.
I don't mind slow tempo...
I just don't like this '[oh I'm so weak, oh I'm so this, oh I'm so that, oh it's the least I can do is give you my everything... oh. boo hoo.]'
I can't tell if my aversion to that other stuff is
A:
That I accurately see it as pseudo-pious
like if I'm really down on my self, and whiny then it's humility"
and that I'm inclined to "just stfu about your self; and praise him"...
or B:
That the songs just cut at my issues with alleged issues with authority.
I hold to the metaphor of Christ being the groom and the church being the bride
i hate how gay it is for guys, but that's how it is
so if you follow that
think of two lovers...
sort of like the plot of "Pretty Woman": Prince and a whore...
Is the dude going to want her to all be like whining and shit:
"[oh I'm so lowly... oh I don't deserve you]"
or is he all going to want her to shut the hell up
and go out dancing with him
and just enjoy life?
I say the latter
I also say there's time for drippy poetry
but not this depressing "[i don't deserve you]" kind of crap.*
It might be true**
but it's not news to him
and we're better focusing on Him, adn what he desires to make of us
rather than our tainted flesh
*i really think its along the same lines as [that sect of monks] that would whip their selves: piety via self-inflicted pain/degradation.
Christ was crucified for our sins.
Us coming up and crucifying our selves before Him?
The notion seems to make a mockery of what He already did.
It inspires an increasing revulsion in me.
**Truth isn't always helpful: "you are ugly, and your mother dresses you funny." or even "I am ugly, and I have no fashion sense."