goal-setting is for insecure pussies... trying to compensate for something

[whune]

or at least that's my assessment of my past behavior.

I need to stop worrying about getting to some vaulted point/set of circumstances; and instead focus on being in the now; as I would liked to have been.

It's not about what you do;
but how;
and why.

I let so much slide as I madly drove toward a particular goal;
and now I don't even now if it's what I really want;
or am suited for.

I have been growing;
and changing;
but things are still generally the same as they always have been;
and that's pretty much because I'm still focusing on circumstances;
and changing them;
instead of discerning what I ultimately desire;
and generally giving that-up to God;
and just focusing on rowing the boat; gently down the stream.

I need to take a step back;
and just steady-as-she goes practice sound stewardship;
and follow my bliss in that context;
and let the chips fall where they may from there.