Long entry
This is gonna be a long post... >>.<<
Current mood: contemplative
Okay, so we have all been in two different situations.. one.. where u like someone so much, they are you're Petistool chick.. or Petistool guy.. someone you hold high and are like *insert holy music here* we have all been there... where you are like.. "You can look but don't touch.. or you can touch.. but can't have" Right? Well if you haven't.. be glad!
Then there is when you are the pedistool chick.. where someone holds you so high and u are like. *giggle* where'd this person come from? And no matter how hard you try... well here are some reason's that you give them:
1. Its just not going to work out
2. I'm going to hurt you
3. It's not you.... its me!
4. You are too good for me....
Naw mean? Yeah.. we've all been told that, and we all say that right? I can think of some more.. but just.. really dumb reasons on why not to be with someone. Why can't you just say.. Hey.. this is the reason why i don't want to be with you...___________ and give them that reason! Yes, oh my goodness yes its going to hurt like jamming some jumbo paper clips into my heart... but guess what. Life goes on after you.. and you.. and you!
So many people try to bring us down everyday.. what difference is it that if its someone bringing you down cuz they don't like you. Kay! Thanks god.. wasn't meant to be! But then why are they still on ur mind.. why could you and everyone else in the world see that you two would be great for each other? (Maybe not everyone else.. but u know what i mean)
Argh.. this is getting to be frusturating this game of love. I don't understand how people can give up hope so easily. I like a girl right now. I like her so fucking much.. she is the first thing on my mind when i wake up and the last thing i think of before sleep. I see her smile... i can smell her scent.. And i sit there at night and... fucking.. how sad.. I reached for her last night while asleep.
So what was it maggie? If they don't want to be with you right now.. they JUST aren't into you right sweetie?
So what about people like me.. who can't give up hope. Who just the thought of.. Oh well maybe in a little while she can see that im still here. With a (broken) smile on my face.. and the only thing that will make me happy is sitting right there.
Everyone keeps telling me that im going for the wrong girls.. well! I go for the girls that capture my heart. Yes.. things ended TERRIBLY with michelle.. but that doesnt mean that i wasn't genuinely happy with her during the course of this.. spiriling down process!
It hurts guys.. it hurts so bad.. to wait.. to wish.
When we went to the beach i was swinging on the swings in pismo.. and i was looking up at the stars.. and i dont remember how we got started on the topic... but it was asked if we wish on stars.. I wish for love... everytime. Everytime i look up and say that lil phrase "Star light.. star bright.." Im wishing for love. Well apparently thats not something that you can wish for.. its something that you wait for. Isnt waiting a form of wishing? Maybe someday.. i will find that perfect someone.. Well.. what if that perfect someone belongs to someone else. What if you are just naturally too damn stubborn of a person and are gonna wait for someone that it isnt meant to be with.. and here u go u just sit here for the rest of your life when you arent meant to be with someone. Heh. Who is to say that there is ONE person out there for everyone.. And if so.. not everyone lives.. what if that person dies? Then the person who lives has to go find love.. someplace else. What if they do? What does that mean? That eiether 1. the person who died.. and her werent meant to be.. or 2. The new person that she is with.. wasnt meant to be..
So what the fuck.. isnt this bitch taking away someone elses true love? Either way.. if it was the guy who died.. then he missed out on finding true love.. if it was the second guy maybe he is missing out on something.
What im trying to say... is that fate takes you only so far. Everyone. STOP being so fucking broken. Stop being so scared to love. What is a life without love. Where would that sincere happiness be? Yeah, love is FUCKED up, and it hurts, and it's work, and its meaningful, and its... IT'S FUCKING great! Don't ever be scared to love, cuz where would you be? You are going to make yourself numb.... so numb that you don't even pay attention to the heart of the person that you are pushing away anymore.
So far, i've got down pat two kinds of girls in a relationship.We Got the Game playing girls.. someone who is broken.. someone afraid to love. And then we got the "wanna be in love" girls... who only seem to be attracted to the game playing girls. These girls.. want to LOVE and be LOVED in return. They like to spend time with their "bun" (right ash?) They arent afraid to cry, or show their feelings and wear them on their sleeve. They love to ask everyone what they think about their relationship.. if something is going wrong in the relationship.. (lets say they are a little jeleous) They try and give the "impression" that they can be taken away.. wether it be bringing around someone that likes them but they don't like, or.. i don't know just something to kinda hint towards being like "Hey i got people too!" To see if the Game playing girls get a little rattled....
What these girls have yet to learn.. is that the game playing girls.. no matter how cute you are, no matter how many times you tell them you love them.. no matter how many serious talks you have with them.. playing those kinds of games to make them jeleous.. just DON'T work. They don't. Because game playing girls know exactly how to react to that. And it isnt in the way that you would want them to react in. Game playing girls (and i dont mean that in a bad way.. just the name that came to mind first) love to be chased. They love to have more than one admirer... and you know what? I <3 Girls like this...they make the world go round for me. I feel like i constantly need to prove my love.. and prove my worthiness... And then sometime i provoke a fight.. just to see how someone will act. Do they still care? And some of you might just think.. that is so stupid Jordan.. why don't you just ask them.... Well shitfuck.. if everything was THAT easy.. I rely more on how people act than what they say. Unless... (ha ha ha) i am in the first stage of getting to know a girl.... A GAME PLAYING GIRL. Any other girl.. if they are like. "Hey, Jordan i like you" I keep em around.. test them.. (they always fail) and move on like it was nothing. but GAME PLAYING GIRLS.. whooooooo! They can ask me to wait.. and maybe someday we have a chance at something.. and there is jordan.. with a sign around her neck reading:
Still Waiting
It all boils down to the simple fact that some people just have no shame.
And some people do.
For all the while.. i may not even be waiting for her anymore...
Will anyone ever know what they truly want?
And is everyone so lazy now that they can't get it?
I feel...
I see...
I know all.. so dont try and hide things from me, because i discover them out anyway. And i act like i don't know what is going on, just because its easier to get information like that.
Ahhhhh
So what are girls to do?
Anyone here ever waited... and got what they wanted?
Or have you waited... and then ended up with heartache?
Is it worth the wait? When someone tells you, not right now, but maybe.. just maybe in the near future we can have something???
P.S. I really hate when people ask or tell someone.. "subscribe to my blog!" its really fucking annoying.. at least on myspace
~Seacrest... OUT~
Current mood: contemplative
Okay, so we have all been in two different situations.. one.. where u like someone so much, they are you're Petistool chick.. or Petistool guy.. someone you hold high and are like *insert holy music here* we have all been there... where you are like.. "You can look but don't touch.. or you can touch.. but can't have" Right? Well if you haven't.. be glad!
Then there is when you are the pedistool chick.. where someone holds you so high and u are like. *giggle* where'd this person come from? And no matter how hard you try... well here are some reason's that you give them:
1. Its just not going to work out
2. I'm going to hurt you
3. It's not you.... its me!
4. You are too good for me....
Naw mean? Yeah.. we've all been told that, and we all say that right? I can think of some more.. but just.. really dumb reasons on why not to be with someone. Why can't you just say.. Hey.. this is the reason why i don't want to be with you...___________ and give them that reason! Yes, oh my goodness yes its going to hurt like jamming some jumbo paper clips into my heart... but guess what. Life goes on after you.. and you.. and you!
So many people try to bring us down everyday.. what difference is it that if its someone bringing you down cuz they don't like you. Kay! Thanks god.. wasn't meant to be! But then why are they still on ur mind.. why could you and everyone else in the world see that you two would be great for each other? (Maybe not everyone else.. but u know what i mean)
Argh.. this is getting to be frusturating this game of love. I don't understand how people can give up hope so easily. I like a girl right now. I like her so fucking much.. she is the first thing on my mind when i wake up and the last thing i think of before sleep. I see her smile... i can smell her scent.. And i sit there at night and... fucking.. how sad.. I reached for her last night while asleep.
So what was it maggie? If they don't want to be with you right now.. they JUST aren't into you right sweetie?
So what about people like me.. who can't give up hope. Who just the thought of.. Oh well maybe in a little while she can see that im still here. With a (broken) smile on my face.. and the only thing that will make me happy is sitting right there.
Everyone keeps telling me that im going for the wrong girls.. well! I go for the girls that capture my heart. Yes.. things ended TERRIBLY with michelle.. but that doesnt mean that i wasn't genuinely happy with her during the course of this.. spiriling down process!
It hurts guys.. it hurts so bad.. to wait.. to wish.
When we went to the beach i was swinging on the swings in pismo.. and i was looking up at the stars.. and i dont remember how we got started on the topic... but it was asked if we wish on stars.. I wish for love... everytime. Everytime i look up and say that lil phrase "Star light.. star bright.." Im wishing for love. Well apparently thats not something that you can wish for.. its something that you wait for. Isnt waiting a form of wishing? Maybe someday.. i will find that perfect someone.. Well.. what if that perfect someone belongs to someone else. What if you are just naturally too damn stubborn of a person and are gonna wait for someone that it isnt meant to be with.. and here u go u just sit here for the rest of your life when you arent meant to be with someone. Heh. Who is to say that there is ONE person out there for everyone.. And if so.. not everyone lives.. what if that person dies? Then the person who lives has to go find love.. someplace else. What if they do? What does that mean? That eiether 1. the person who died.. and her werent meant to be.. or 2. The new person that she is with.. wasnt meant to be..
So what the fuck.. isnt this bitch taking away someone elses true love? Either way.. if it was the guy who died.. then he missed out on finding true love.. if it was the second guy maybe he is missing out on something.
What im trying to say... is that fate takes you only so far. Everyone. STOP being so fucking broken. Stop being so scared to love. What is a life without love. Where would that sincere happiness be? Yeah, love is FUCKED up, and it hurts, and it's work, and its meaningful, and its... IT'S FUCKING great! Don't ever be scared to love, cuz where would you be? You are going to make yourself numb.... so numb that you don't even pay attention to the heart of the person that you are pushing away anymore.
So far, i've got down pat two kinds of girls in a relationship.We Got the Game playing girls.. someone who is broken.. someone afraid to love. And then we got the "wanna be in love" girls... who only seem to be attracted to the game playing girls. These girls.. want to LOVE and be LOVED in return. They like to spend time with their "bun" (right ash?) They arent afraid to cry, or show their feelings and wear them on their sleeve. They love to ask everyone what they think about their relationship.. if something is going wrong in the relationship.. (lets say they are a little jeleous) They try and give the "impression" that they can be taken away.. wether it be bringing around someone that likes them but they don't like, or.. i don't know just something to kinda hint towards being like "Hey i got people too!" To see if the Game playing girls get a little rattled....
What these girls have yet to learn.. is that the game playing girls.. no matter how cute you are, no matter how many times you tell them you love them.. no matter how many serious talks you have with them.. playing those kinds of games to make them jeleous.. just DON'T work. They don't. Because game playing girls know exactly how to react to that. And it isnt in the way that you would want them to react in. Game playing girls (and i dont mean that in a bad way.. just the name that came to mind first) love to be chased. They love to have more than one admirer... and you know what? I <3 Girls like this...they make the world go round for me. I feel like i constantly need to prove my love.. and prove my worthiness... And then sometime i provoke a fight.. just to see how someone will act. Do they still care? And some of you might just think.. that is so stupid Jordan.. why don't you just ask them.... Well shitfuck.. if everything was THAT easy.. I rely more on how people act than what they say. Unless... (ha ha ha) i am in the first stage of getting to know a girl.... A GAME PLAYING GIRL. Any other girl.. if they are like. "Hey, Jordan i like you" I keep em around.. test them.. (they always fail) and move on like it was nothing. but GAME PLAYING GIRLS.. whooooooo! They can ask me to wait.. and maybe someday we have a chance at something.. and there is jordan.. with a sign around her neck reading:
Still Waiting
It all boils down to the simple fact that some people just have no shame.
And some people do.
For all the while.. i may not even be waiting for her anymore...
Will anyone ever know what they truly want?
And is everyone so lazy now that they can't get it?
I feel...
I see...
I know all.. so dont try and hide things from me, because i discover them out anyway. And i act like i don't know what is going on, just because its easier to get information like that.
Ahhhhh
So what are girls to do?
Anyone here ever waited... and got what they wanted?
Or have you waited... and then ended up with heartache?
Is it worth the wait? When someone tells you, not right now, but maybe.. just maybe in the near future we can have something???
P.S. I really hate when people ask or tell someone.. "subscribe to my blog!" its really fucking annoying.. at least on myspace
~Seacrest... OUT~