can't put your arms around a memory
i know in my heart i should have never gone back. every horrible, lust filled emotion is back in my body and in a place where it can never go away, my heart. my heart is screaming in my chest for me to stop letting it get broken again and again, but i still come back. my heart is breaking with every button i push on my phone. with every fragmented sentence texted into a short and simple message, my heart sinks deeper into my body wondering why i allow myself to be hurt. the twisted emotions and senseless thoughts are running through my head. part of me wants to do what i've been wanting to do since forever, but the other part of me knows what is right and what i should not do.
i'm sorry if i hurt you. someone has to be hurt. i might as well hurt myself to prevent any of you from suffering. i care about both, but one choice has to be made.