we shall duel ALARM 1 at 0845.
I am a black belt in snooze(button).....
My current sleeping pattern must come to a change. It’s the wee hour’s of the a.m. and I lay in bed thinking about all the other people who might be sleeping; I wonder the obvious: is he or she rolling over, are they flipping the drool pillow over and making sure not to stroke the drooled spot on the underside with their hand, or are they relieving the occasional expel of intestinal gas from the anus.
I know that other’s sleeping endeavors aren’t the reason why my body can’t conform to the sleep. I know it stems from my current feeling about school and how it’s making me feel mentally lazy and in turn keeping me up in question most of the night.
I’ve been in school for about a month and a half now and though I wish I could express this enormous emotion about currently being a digital media student, having all these new classes, and being amongst strangers, I’m just lacking excitement. Usually I’m excited about projects, new reading assignments, but everything is so surrounded by the very thing I’m majoring in: the digital rhetoric. Most of my classes have online notes (so having to look in the book is utterly pointless…but fuck, I like books.), most of the exams are taken online, and going to class gives me little or no further insight then that which I covered in my reading and online notes. The information is not boring, but the lack of example, the wishy-washy structure (or lack thereof) of most of the class’s gives me that cliché deliberation about school and how I want to make it better. Simply, I wish for smaller class size, more communication, and far more example. People were never meant to just look at endless PowerPoint slides, hear microphone feedback in an auditorium of 250+, and constantly hear “we’ll take a look at that next time, you don’t need to know that yet” and never actually coming back and explaining that which we were suppose to cover and it inevitably being on the exam. I look at all the time spent doing “busy work (busy work is not to be mistaken with easy work)” and realize that it’s just filler in a program that could be seriously finished in a year’s time with sheer proficiency. I’m not looking to finish fast or “get the hell out,” but I am looking for the desire I once had. Usually I ignore such feelings and push forward without second guessing, but this world of option is seriously a land of chaos.
Though I’d hate to admit it, I miss the film program. Not that it didn’t have its flaws or keep me up all night thinking as well, but the film program was an unmarked curiosity in my life and made me fantasize.
The problem of being out of the web design, art, and graphic design realm for almost a year, in a school setting, has left me to lack behind. I realize that I have so much to learn and no time to fit it in because the busy work takes up my time. If I could some how make the busy work go faster I could perhaps fit in the many things I need to know. I enjoy school far too much to ever leave it, but it just never matches up with my direction (sadly).
My current sleeping pattern must come to a change. It’s the wee hour’s of the a.m. and I lay in bed thinking about all the other people who might be sleeping; I wonder the obvious: is he or she rolling over, are they flipping the drool pillow over and making sure not to stroke the drooled spot on the underside with their hand, or are they relieving the occasional expel of intestinal gas from the anus.
I know that other’s sleeping endeavors aren’t the reason why my body can’t conform to the sleep. I know it stems from my current feeling about school and how it’s making me feel mentally lazy and in turn keeping me up in question most of the night.
I’ve been in school for about a month and a half now and though I wish I could express this enormous emotion about currently being a digital media student, having all these new classes, and being amongst strangers, I’m just lacking excitement. Usually I’m excited about projects, new reading assignments, but everything is so surrounded by the very thing I’m majoring in: the digital rhetoric. Most of my classes have online notes (so having to look in the book is utterly pointless…but fuck, I like books.), most of the exams are taken online, and going to class gives me little or no further insight then that which I covered in my reading and online notes. The information is not boring, but the lack of example, the wishy-washy structure (or lack thereof) of most of the class’s gives me that cliché deliberation about school and how I want to make it better. Simply, I wish for smaller class size, more communication, and far more example. People were never meant to just look at endless PowerPoint slides, hear microphone feedback in an auditorium of 250+, and constantly hear “we’ll take a look at that next time, you don’t need to know that yet” and never actually coming back and explaining that which we were suppose to cover and it inevitably being on the exam. I look at all the time spent doing “busy work (busy work is not to be mistaken with easy work)” and realize that it’s just filler in a program that could be seriously finished in a year’s time with sheer proficiency. I’m not looking to finish fast or “get the hell out,” but I am looking for the desire I once had. Usually I ignore such feelings and push forward without second guessing, but this world of option is seriously a land of chaos.
Though I’d hate to admit it, I miss the film program. Not that it didn’t have its flaws or keep me up all night thinking as well, but the film program was an unmarked curiosity in my life and made me fantasize.
The problem of being out of the web design, art, and graphic design realm for almost a year, in a school setting, has left me to lack behind. I realize that I have so much to learn and no time to fit it in because the busy work takes up my time. If I could some how make the busy work go faster I could perhaps fit in the many things I need to know. I enjoy school far too much to ever leave it, but it just never matches up with my direction (sadly).