Hair Trigger
I'm not sure why i'm writing this, I almost never feel the compulsion to write anymore. But I've been thinking about one of my ex's a lot tonight. Probably because I went to the store late at night. That was our thing, buy a bunch of junk food, stay up late watching crappy movies, and just laugh a lot. I feel like maybe i messed things up, starting to doubt if i was right for ending it. I was with her for a year and we split up nearly 2 years ago. My memory fades a lot these days especially bad memories. I never remember things as bad as they actually wore... at least i think.... good memories though get stuck in my mind and never leave. I miss having her to turn to. she wasn't there for me often, infact she rarely was. most of the time she would ignore me or my issues so she could say "i wanna be a girl" over and over and over again like that would change anything. She would be there for me from time to time and it was nice to have her there. She had me kinda repress the idea that i might be trans since she said she didn't want to be dating a girl. So when me and her split up she started dating a transgirl later on. Right now we're not on speaking terms because i have a hairlike trigger. I got pissed off because she was admiring this guy for putting lotion on her hands. I felt she never gave me even that much respected when I did so much for her than that.