I hate myself hxc

[whos_that_lady]

Just got home from a long day at work. I got a little sad news today. The Jerrod kid I work with whom I love love LOVE may be quitting because of this other amazing job he got :( boo for me.

I'm feeling shitty about pretty much everything in my life.

I wish I had gone to school this year
I wish I had tried a little harder with my mom...
I wish I could find it in myself to give Jared a chance.
I wish I didn't spend each and every paycheck on eating out, going to concerts, gas, and CD's.
I wish little things didn't make me intensly angry (like when I hear my brother and his girlfriend down in his room being cute and cuddly )

and on and on and on.

Anyone know how to fix thissss?

...didn't think so.

:(

~*Jaimie Lee*~

There's a lightning storm each and every night
Crashing inside you like motorbikes
We toss and turn, sleep so loud
Grind the teeth in our empty mouths
Our empty

There's a forest fire burning bright
Spreading quickly towards our last rites
Nowhere to run, pointless to hide
Just lay there and scream, pretending to try
Pretending

Intending to burn, pretending to fight it
Everyone learns faster on fire
Things took a turn, lost all desire
You live and you burn
You live and you burn

This impending doom is left deep inside
And it's haunting you each and every night
Like starving wolves, counting sheep
We close our eyes, pretending to sleep
Descending

Intending to burn, pretending to fight it
Everyone learns faster on fire
Things took a turn, lost all desire
You live and you burn
You live and...

Like hell, we are anxiously waiting
Like hell burning silently strong
Somehow we fell down by the wayside
And somehow this hell is home

As we burn, pretending to fight it
Everyone learns faster on fire
Things took a turn, lost all desire
You live and you burn
You live and
Like hell, we are anxiously waiting
Like hell burning silently strong
Somehow we fell down by the wayside
And somehow this hell is home
Right now, this hell is my home