It's a little early in the morning for a journal entry....
but I have about an hour until I'm bombarded by people at work needing one thing or another so this seems like a good time.
I have the cold from hell. Everyone keeps saying it's the change of weather and summer colds here are the worst. They're right. Today is day 6 or 7, I don't remember anymore, it all seems like one long day in the depths of hell. I only wish I was being dramatic. The cough, which is constant and annoying as fuck, isn't even the worst part. I haven't been able to smell or taste a.single.thing. since this started and that has sucked the most. The sinus pressure, ugh! My ears always have that feeling of needing to be popped yet it won't happen. On Friday morning, we'll be driving through the mountains in Colorado and I hope that the major elevation changes relieve some of this pressure. To think this could still be an issue on Friday, makes me wanna crawl into bed and die there. I gotta give credit to the other managers though, they've all been super sympathetic to my pathetic ass and have been coming in early to send me home and picking up my slack. I just don't have any energy. I had to walk DOWN the stairs to the basement yesterday and just that left me feeling dizzy and weak and I had to rest against the wall for like 10 minutes. Matt has been playing nurse and taking good care of me. I'm thankful he is around right now. He's been getting me food, making me take my cold meds, getting my laundry done, keeping me warm at night when I start running another fever and getting the chills, and most importantly... telling me I'm still pretty even though I'm a snotty, red nosed, hacking, hair hasn't been combed in 2 days, puffy eyed, sick mess. Awww. Enough whining for one day huh?
I don't know if it's the medication I've been on latley or what, but the dreams I've been having for the past week have been sooooo strange and pretty consistant. I wish I knew where my dream book was because I'm positive my subconscience is trying to tell me something. It's always the same 3 people involved. One of the people keeps getting murdered (though in different ways) by the other person and then that person always ends up leaving me in some way at the end of the dream even though all throughout he is promising me otherwise. When I think about it, it's pretty true to how my relationships with these 2 people are in real life with a few more twists and turns and weird stuff happening. Maybe it's a warning that something is gonna happen or maybe I'm just reading too much into it...it's odd for me to have recurring dreams SO close together though. Usually they're spaced out by a few months or even a couple of years.
So I was hoping we could leave here on Tuesday instead of Thursday but that isn't possible because we're waiting for replacement parts for the car to come in at the shop that is fixing the beast up. Matt literally searched ALL over the damn city for the light fixture and noone seems to carry any parts for Cougars. It's on a special order and it's gonna cost a couple hundred dollars for one little, yet important, piece of..whatever it's made of. I wanted to leave early because my parents are leaving for the cabin the day before we're due to get back and they won't wait for me, which I totally understand...it just means when I finally get to Portage, I'll have 5 more days to wait to see Haylie and sit and do nothing but wait. I wanted to set it up for Haylie to spend the night with other family or one of my friends since it's only gonna be a time difference of like 16 hours but Mom is being silly about that and I'm not gonna start to argue with her before I even get back. Choosing my battles with the woman is something I'm going to be wiser about this time around, that's for sure. I'll get some job hunting done at least and get settled. Maybe even take a couple days to go see some friends since it's been quite a while cuz once Haylie is home, that's where my attention will be.
So, after doing the math...I'm almost positive I will be back in Portage by early Saturday night. I wanna make a stop in Milwaukee to see Dana for a bit and Matt wants to check in with his dad and probably pick up his cat. I'm anxious to see everyone so I'm crossing my fingers that a good majority of you will be out and about that night cuz I sure do plan on going out for a much needed beverage or two and seeing all those faces I've missed so much. Soooo...if you don't have plans on Saturday night, you do now :)
K, time to get some work done. Later homies!
I have the cold from hell. Everyone keeps saying it's the change of weather and summer colds here are the worst. They're right. Today is day 6 or 7, I don't remember anymore, it all seems like one long day in the depths of hell. I only wish I was being dramatic. The cough, which is constant and annoying as fuck, isn't even the worst part. I haven't been able to smell or taste a.single.thing. since this started and that has sucked the most. The sinus pressure, ugh! My ears always have that feeling of needing to be popped yet it won't happen. On Friday morning, we'll be driving through the mountains in Colorado and I hope that the major elevation changes relieve some of this pressure. To think this could still be an issue on Friday, makes me wanna crawl into bed and die there. I gotta give credit to the other managers though, they've all been super sympathetic to my pathetic ass and have been coming in early to send me home and picking up my slack. I just don't have any energy. I had to walk DOWN the stairs to the basement yesterday and just that left me feeling dizzy and weak and I had to rest against the wall for like 10 minutes. Matt has been playing nurse and taking good care of me. I'm thankful he is around right now. He's been getting me food, making me take my cold meds, getting my laundry done, keeping me warm at night when I start running another fever and getting the chills, and most importantly... telling me I'm still pretty even though I'm a snotty, red nosed, hacking, hair hasn't been combed in 2 days, puffy eyed, sick mess. Awww. Enough whining for one day huh?
I don't know if it's the medication I've been on latley or what, but the dreams I've been having for the past week have been sooooo strange and pretty consistant. I wish I knew where my dream book was because I'm positive my subconscience is trying to tell me something. It's always the same 3 people involved. One of the people keeps getting murdered (though in different ways) by the other person and then that person always ends up leaving me in some way at the end of the dream even though all throughout he is promising me otherwise. When I think about it, it's pretty true to how my relationships with these 2 people are in real life with a few more twists and turns and weird stuff happening. Maybe it's a warning that something is gonna happen or maybe I'm just reading too much into it...it's odd for me to have recurring dreams SO close together though. Usually they're spaced out by a few months or even a couple of years.
So I was hoping we could leave here on Tuesday instead of Thursday but that isn't possible because we're waiting for replacement parts for the car to come in at the shop that is fixing the beast up. Matt literally searched ALL over the damn city for the light fixture and noone seems to carry any parts for Cougars. It's on a special order and it's gonna cost a couple hundred dollars for one little, yet important, piece of..whatever it's made of. I wanted to leave early because my parents are leaving for the cabin the day before we're due to get back and they won't wait for me, which I totally understand...it just means when I finally get to Portage, I'll have 5 more days to wait to see Haylie and sit and do nothing but wait. I wanted to set it up for Haylie to spend the night with other family or one of my friends since it's only gonna be a time difference of like 16 hours but Mom is being silly about that and I'm not gonna start to argue with her before I even get back. Choosing my battles with the woman is something I'm going to be wiser about this time around, that's for sure. I'll get some job hunting done at least and get settled. Maybe even take a couple days to go see some friends since it's been quite a while cuz once Haylie is home, that's where my attention will be.
So, after doing the math...I'm almost positive I will be back in Portage by early Saturday night. I wanna make a stop in Milwaukee to see Dana for a bit and Matt wants to check in with his dad and probably pick up his cat. I'm anxious to see everyone so I'm crossing my fingers that a good majority of you will be out and about that night cuz I sure do plan on going out for a much needed beverage or two and seeing all those faces I've missed so much. Soooo...if you don't have plans on Saturday night, you do now :)
K, time to get some work done. Later homies!