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i called her tonight. we talked for 2 hours. it was soo nice. after i got off the phone, i promptly recieved a smack upside the head from my loving roommate. i don't know... there's nobody else like her... as time has gone on, i've been realizing more and more how much a part of me she is. it's been half a year... i'm supposed to be over everything and moving on. and i'm not being all sad and retarded about it either... just wish things were different sometimes, and that i hadn't thrown it all away. (and i know this is the pattern with all of us...every single one of us. we all come back...over and over...)
after slapping me upside the head, me and meta had a long talk about all that. i think i give up too easily. i don't know if i've ever worked through any major things before...and yet it's what i always talk about as far as what relationships need. it's so much harder when it applies to you. i need to fight for things i want...not just let them float away. (wow this sounds familiar..)
at least i'm not freaking out again. thank God!!
after slapping me upside the head, me and meta had a long talk about all that. i think i give up too easily. i don't know if i've ever worked through any major things before...and yet it's what i always talk about as far as what relationships need. it's so much harder when it applies to you. i need to fight for things i want...not just let them float away. (wow this sounds familiar..)
at least i'm not freaking out again. thank God!!