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I get a funny feeling,
it comes from deep inside.
I get all mad and angry,
wanting to go and hide.
My doctor calls it depression,
my dad says it's just me.
But the thoughts and feelings,
no one will ever be able to see.
Some say I'm psycho,
some say I'm just weird.
It's like I'm a different person,
and the old me just disappeared.
I get really edgy,
I want to commit suicide real bad.
Then I get a headache,
followed by feeling sad.
I wish I could get help,
I wish it would go away.
Maybe if I keep praying real hard,
it will some day.
kk to put you all to rest, im not suicidal, just a very emotional person and wishing i was dead sometimes is true but i do know life will take me to a better place eventually. okie anyways they say everyone has there talents and writing i guess is one of mine, but this isnt using ita s intended for sure. but i do feel really crappy right now, im pending my life on a decision right now to be made by somebody other then me, im anxious, frightened at what could come of this AGAIN, im scared to be alone and lose this person. But sadly none of these emotions will help better my chances of feeling happy at the moment. Ryann im glad your there for me when others arnt (or when you ARE there for me! =P j/k). umm Brittany well i dont know exactly how to put into words what to say to you right now, im glad your still able to be my friend, your not just another run of the mill girl. Jenna, well your a special gal and hope someday you are content with where your life is at, hope you parents both take midol and settle down. Um Donis. you know where you stand with me, and i cant ask for anything else right now. Life itself could spiral in a sumit plumit (hehe fun word combination) or i could be happy for the rest of my life because i would be making somebody happy. Maybe Brittany analyzed me correctly, i didnt let her completely finish but she said somebody to the effect of how i treat my girlfriends and how i treat my ex-girlfriends. I do see exactly where she gets that, i dunno, i dont have a reason for why but i know that i hold my girlfriends with the highest importance. but right now i feel like curling up in a ball and forgeting life itself. anywho this probably confuses alot of you that are reading this. sooo here is what this bluntly means. Im awaiting somebodys decision. Im moving to Odessa when i graduate, already have a house there to move into (btw thats where i originally am from and the rest of my family currently lives there). and I might be moving down there with somebody. Now that should clear everyones mind up a little, btw im having a small new years party, at my house, lots to drink.... yea... lol, and probably gonna be sittin around listening to music, movies, stupid random shit, and fireworks??? eh probably not fireworks but what the hell if we get bored later that night might go fuck around. ummm yea.. i am happy to be where i am right now but im shaky as fuck. and i really need somebody to be here for me. wish there was somebody. sucks cause there isnt anyone. -braden
it comes from deep inside.
I get all mad and angry,
wanting to go and hide.
My doctor calls it depression,
my dad says it's just me.
But the thoughts and feelings,
no one will ever be able to see.
Some say I'm psycho,
some say I'm just weird.
It's like I'm a different person,
and the old me just disappeared.
I get really edgy,
I want to commit suicide real bad.
Then I get a headache,
followed by feeling sad.
I wish I could get help,
I wish it would go away.
Maybe if I keep praying real hard,
it will some day.
kk to put you all to rest, im not suicidal, just a very emotional person and wishing i was dead sometimes is true but i do know life will take me to a better place eventually. okie anyways they say everyone has there talents and writing i guess is one of mine, but this isnt using ita s intended for sure. but i do feel really crappy right now, im pending my life on a decision right now to be made by somebody other then me, im anxious, frightened at what could come of this AGAIN, im scared to be alone and lose this person. But sadly none of these emotions will help better my chances of feeling happy at the moment. Ryann im glad your there for me when others arnt (or when you ARE there for me! =P j/k). umm Brittany well i dont know exactly how to put into words what to say to you right now, im glad your still able to be my friend, your not just another run of the mill girl. Jenna, well your a special gal and hope someday you are content with where your life is at, hope you parents both take midol and settle down. Um Donis. you know where you stand with me, and i cant ask for anything else right now. Life itself could spiral in a sumit plumit (hehe fun word combination) or i could be happy for the rest of my life because i would be making somebody happy. Maybe Brittany analyzed me correctly, i didnt let her completely finish but she said somebody to the effect of how i treat my girlfriends and how i treat my ex-girlfriends. I do see exactly where she gets that, i dunno, i dont have a reason for why but i know that i hold my girlfriends with the highest importance. but right now i feel like curling up in a ball and forgeting life itself. anywho this probably confuses alot of you that are reading this. sooo here is what this bluntly means. Im awaiting somebodys decision. Im moving to Odessa when i graduate, already have a house there to move into (btw thats where i originally am from and the rest of my family currently lives there). and I might be moving down there with somebody. Now that should clear everyones mind up a little, btw im having a small new years party, at my house, lots to drink.... yea... lol, and probably gonna be sittin around listening to music, movies, stupid random shit, and fireworks??? eh probably not fireworks but what the hell if we get bored later that night might go fuck around. ummm yea.. i am happy to be where i am right now but im shaky as fuck. and i really need somebody to be here for me. wish there was somebody. sucks cause there isnt anyone. -braden