The moral this time is.. girls make boys cry
In these past 2 years[more] I think I've really grown. I've changed almost completely, yet deep down I know, I can feel, the old me is still there. But things are good. I think about what would of happened if I had never met PJ, where would I be. I don't think I'd be in highschool, infact I don't think I'd be living with my parents. As much as I miss partying & having no rules to live by, I love the stability, the security he gives me. I know he'll always be there.. No matter how stupid I get.
I go threw friends like toilet paper. I'm horrible @ picking good ones. & I constantly find myself looking for that NEW best friend, when truthfully my best friend has been next to me this whole time. How many friends can I say have been there for me whenever I needed them, have never bailed on me, or ditched me for other people. I can't think of any but him. All those fucked up things I did to him, how many times I watched him cry over me & i kept fuckin him over. BUT he stayed by my side. He could of left @ anytime, & gone for any other girl.. he didn't.
&FRIENDS. Things change, People change. I'm getting closer with some old friends, suchas Rachel, Dave & Kevin. But also making new friends, suchas AJ & Abe. Its been interesting sorting threw friends lately. I used to be so nieve, & believe a lot of 'fake' people were my friends, when really we all know what they were after [think back to my reputation]. Its taken me over 16 years to finally stop being so oblivious. I look @ my friends, usually guy friends, who only talk to me late @ night.. Before recently, I'd really believe you had good intentions, but now I realize your a complete idiot. As you press your "game" on me.. just know I'm laughing at you, & probably showing the whole world how ridiculous you sound. If you think I'm talking about you.. Chances are I AM!
I'm also tired of the friends who are never there. I'm not your fall back girl. Don't come running to me when no one else wants you, especially when your girlfriend/boyfriend is too busy to hang out with you. Its pathetic.
Sara&Nuggets. We were so close, the best friends, everyone envied our friendship. It sucks that our friendship ended the way it did, & it pisses me off that I miss you. But what pisses me off the most, Is I was there for both of you when you needed me, no matter how many times you let me down. But the only time you two want me, is when no1 else gives a fuck about you.. "thanks for the memories.."-F.O.B.
The END.
I go threw friends like toilet paper. I'm horrible @ picking good ones. & I constantly find myself looking for that NEW best friend, when truthfully my best friend has been next to me this whole time. How many friends can I say have been there for me whenever I needed them, have never bailed on me, or ditched me for other people. I can't think of any but him. All those fucked up things I did to him, how many times I watched him cry over me & i kept fuckin him over. BUT he stayed by my side. He could of left @ anytime, & gone for any other girl.. he didn't.
&FRIENDS. Things change, People change. I'm getting closer with some old friends, suchas Rachel, Dave & Kevin. But also making new friends, suchas AJ & Abe. Its been interesting sorting threw friends lately. I used to be so nieve, & believe a lot of 'fake' people were my friends, when really we all know what they were after [think back to my reputation]. Its taken me over 16 years to finally stop being so oblivious. I look @ my friends, usually guy friends, who only talk to me late @ night.. Before recently, I'd really believe you had good intentions, but now I realize your a complete idiot. As you press your "game" on me.. just know I'm laughing at you, & probably showing the whole world how ridiculous you sound. If you think I'm talking about you.. Chances are I AM!
I'm also tired of the friends who are never there. I'm not your fall back girl. Don't come running to me when no one else wants you, especially when your girlfriend/boyfriend is too busy to hang out with you. Its pathetic.
Sara&Nuggets. We were so close, the best friends, everyone envied our friendship. It sucks that our friendship ended the way it did, & it pisses me off that I miss you. But what pisses me off the most, Is I was there for both of you when you needed me, no matter how many times you let me down. But the only time you two want me, is when no1 else gives a fuck about you.. "thanks for the memories.."-F.O.B.
The END.