everything can change..
yesterday was boring..but maxxy called and i talked to him and adam about getting raped by some black dude named bonecrusher lol...i went to the spa today..got a massage and a facial...it was cool and so fucking relaxing..but i left feeling shitty for some reason. it was cool tho cus sass called me and i miss her so fucking much..and peter called me..aaaaaa i luv him so much..came home and watched some tv...saw my favorite movie of all time...now and then..lol it makes me feel so young again...i always wanted to be roberta cus she got to kiss devon sawa...
my dad asked me today that if i had the choice to move bak to egypt would i want to..i thought about it for a while..im not sure really..i mean egypt was everything to me...i miss everything about it..lol the lack of drama there which i think is a good thing..i dunno..my friends were so amazing..and i dint cry as much then as i do then..then again i was younger...i dunno..maybe its time for a change??
i was watching the last episode of 90210..david and donna get married..and they were in love since they were like 16..does that ever really happen? i mean can u ever find someone like that for real? lol i blame movies for making me so naive.
i kinda lost who i am right now..as fucking clichet as it sounds...i love my friends but im so caught up on being this someone that im not and im losing alot of them...so u no wut..im gonna get my life bak!! i mean sometimes things happen that u cant control but thats no reason to shut out the world...right?
i dunno..i miss lauren..most of my friends r out of town and i feel really lonely..and everytime i evaluate smthn in my head to fix it..it goes wrong?!....im having an epiphany tho..u just have to let things happen, u cant guilt someone into loving u lol.., looks hurt more than words, everything happens for a reason!!!!so wut now..do i push myself away or try to hold on more?? i dunno yet
my dad asked me today that if i had the choice to move bak to egypt would i want to..i thought about it for a while..im not sure really..i mean egypt was everything to me...i miss everything about it..lol the lack of drama there which i think is a good thing..i dunno..my friends were so amazing..and i dint cry as much then as i do then..then again i was younger...i dunno..maybe its time for a change??
i was watching the last episode of 90210..david and donna get married..and they were in love since they were like 16..does that ever really happen? i mean can u ever find someone like that for real? lol i blame movies for making me so naive.
i kinda lost who i am right now..as fucking clichet as it sounds...i love my friends but im so caught up on being this someone that im not and im losing alot of them...so u no wut..im gonna get my life bak!! i mean sometimes things happen that u cant control but thats no reason to shut out the world...right?
i dunno..i miss lauren..most of my friends r out of town and i feel really lonely..and everytime i evaluate smthn in my head to fix it..it goes wrong?!....im having an epiphany tho..u just have to let things happen, u cant guilt someone into loving u lol.., looks hurt more than words, everything happens for a reason!!!!so wut now..do i push myself away or try to hold on more?? i dunno yet