if all the rain drops were stuff to do this weekend...
i think i've become impatient with making friends.
working at a camp great friends come ready-made. seriously my co-leader and i this summer were practically joined at the cabeza. the sense of community there is unnavoidable. people are by nature welcoming and friendly and everyone is there to meet other cool people. you'd have to work really hard not to.
likewise, traveling this year it was shocking how easy it was to meet people. Even though i was traveling alone I almost never felt lonely. On busses, in hostels, on the beach, in restraunts, bars, discos, once again i had to work to find solitude. I made new friends almost every day for four months straight! you'd think i could do this as a profession now.
but it feels so much harder in eugene. I know i've only been here for a few weeks but i've really barely met anyone. I guess it kindof just hit me today when classes ended and i realized that i had nothing to do and no one to hang out with until monday's classes and work began again.
I do have a roomate but she's got her own life. plus our schedules line up so that we are almost never home at the same time. besides that, i refuse to simply attach myself to the poor girl and follow her around because she's the only person i know. i should be perfectly capable of making my own friends here. i've done it all over the world!
i think that this time around it is just going to take a lot more work. at camp and traveling everyone else was looking to meet people. most everyone who's here right now of my age has been here for several years and already has a group of friends. so even when i do meet people here i dont think they realize that they are one of a very select few that i know. when i say to someone, "we should hang out sometime" i really sincerely mean it. and by sometime i really mean anytime or as soon as possible. this is where i guess i'm just being impatient.
i know i will meet people in time
i guess it has been nice to have some alone time. not having friends to hang out with has left me with plenty of time to pick up old hobbies. I have been able to pick up my guitar for the first time in months. i'm working on several new juggling patterns. i'm getting great grades, have perfect attendance, and am keeping up with all of my readings as well as finishing books for fun. i've been cooking some mighty tasty dinners for one. but still i may have had just about all the alone time i can handle for a while.
i think alone time is a little like a rainy day. It can be completely refreshing when it has been a while, but too many in a row and you end up depressed.
i dont want to end up spending my friday and saturday nights like john cusak in high fidelity, organizing my record collection chronologicaly by life event.
that would be too many rainy days.
working at a camp great friends come ready-made. seriously my co-leader and i this summer were practically joined at the cabeza. the sense of community there is unnavoidable. people are by nature welcoming and friendly and everyone is there to meet other cool people. you'd have to work really hard not to.
likewise, traveling this year it was shocking how easy it was to meet people. Even though i was traveling alone I almost never felt lonely. On busses, in hostels, on the beach, in restraunts, bars, discos, once again i had to work to find solitude. I made new friends almost every day for four months straight! you'd think i could do this as a profession now.
but it feels so much harder in eugene. I know i've only been here for a few weeks but i've really barely met anyone. I guess it kindof just hit me today when classes ended and i realized that i had nothing to do and no one to hang out with until monday's classes and work began again.
I do have a roomate but she's got her own life. plus our schedules line up so that we are almost never home at the same time. besides that, i refuse to simply attach myself to the poor girl and follow her around because she's the only person i know. i should be perfectly capable of making my own friends here. i've done it all over the world!
i think that this time around it is just going to take a lot more work. at camp and traveling everyone else was looking to meet people. most everyone who's here right now of my age has been here for several years and already has a group of friends. so even when i do meet people here i dont think they realize that they are one of a very select few that i know. when i say to someone, "we should hang out sometime" i really sincerely mean it. and by sometime i really mean anytime or as soon as possible. this is where i guess i'm just being impatient.
i know i will meet people in time
i guess it has been nice to have some alone time. not having friends to hang out with has left me with plenty of time to pick up old hobbies. I have been able to pick up my guitar for the first time in months. i'm working on several new juggling patterns. i'm getting great grades, have perfect attendance, and am keeping up with all of my readings as well as finishing books for fun. i've been cooking some mighty tasty dinners for one. but still i may have had just about all the alone time i can handle for a while.
i think alone time is a little like a rainy day. It can be completely refreshing when it has been a while, but too many in a row and you end up depressed.
i dont want to end up spending my friday and saturday nights like john cusak in high fidelity, organizing my record collection chronologicaly by life event.
that would be too many rainy days.