people suck
shit day at school again.. i just dont know what the fuck i do to the girls at school fr them to talk actually no sorry IGNORE me and talk to me like a fuckin retard.. shit, well lee apologized to me. and it was cool, i am happy bout that..
went to meet yana, and all was good, she went to meet matt and i went home, to salk in my self pity.
went and sarah gillies, then had to meet ash and take her back to hospatoooooooooooooool cuz she didnt know how to get there, didnt talk to gillies much, whihc sucked but oh well.
then ash and me went and checked out what movoes where on, they were all shithouse, so we decided to go and stir up the ppl at mcdonalds, and eat and chain smoke, well didnt do much at maccas, just threw m&m's everywhere and ice creamed the walls, gawd i love that girl she is funny as.. then ash left and i went home and that brings me to right... now,
vanessa rng ash while i was waiting for the train with her, and she was like o0o0 did you have fun with annabel .. like in a bitchy voice, FUCK HER i feel so lmae sitting here waiting around for her to come back.. and it sucks ase, i did everything for that girl ya know.. i mean what thge fuck was it partly not my idea to get her a dog?.. fucking hell some ppl are so ungratefull.. im not going to bring up about how much money, alchol, smokes, clothes i bought her because i did that shit to her because she was my best friend and i adored our friendship.. so i am not cut about that..
she cannot treat ppl the way that she does becuase for one she has made feel like utter fucking shit, i bet she is just sitting there htink YES i finally got rid of her, did she even like me at all?
maybe i am thinking too much about it. but i saw her at the station today and she was so rude to me... and then started telling yana about how she is getting her libret peirced next week.. what the fuck man, me and here were spose to get her libret and my lip peirced and now ewell fuck yoiu.. she is getting it done and it felt like she was rubbing it my face.. all this shit bout.. "i need a break from you, dont be upset, i miss you" ok for 1] a break\? ii am not her fucking bitch it is a friendship not a relationshoip.. FUCK
2] dont be upset? how can someone not be upset by that.. she broke my fucking heart[in a friendship way ya know?]
and finally 3] she misses me yet she wants to be on a 'break'? get right
my week has been the worst..
and so i am losing one by one my friends.. they all just seem so pre-occupied.,. with new frined., new relationships, new crushes.. it fucked.. fine you guys can make new frineds i dont care but dont fucking forget about your old ones.. [ok i stle that lastline fro lee thanks!x]
so i feel so pathetic and lame about the whole hting.. it feels like fucking primary school all over again.. i want to chnage schools desperatly but my mum wont let me.. so i feel as if i just my quit school for the year and then she will want me at school cuz having a child out of school will damage her identity..
on a lighter note otmrrow shall be good.. meeting yaa at 11 then i am meeting jono for filming.. i hjust want to know what is wrong with me.. why do i drive ppl away..
i HATE the fact i write so much shit on this LJ.. i mean i must sound like the biggest emo fuck.. you guys must like scroll throuhg your friends list when it gets to mine.. you keep going.. heck, i would sccroll past my entrys.. i couldnt even undertsnad whsat i am talking about .. my fingers are to tired to even hit the right keys most of the time..
fuck this.. i am going to get drunk
went to meet yana, and all was good, she went to meet matt and i went home, to salk in my self pity.
went and sarah gillies, then had to meet ash and take her back to hospatoooooooooooooool cuz she didnt know how to get there, didnt talk to gillies much, whihc sucked but oh well.
then ash and me went and checked out what movoes where on, they were all shithouse, so we decided to go and stir up the ppl at mcdonalds, and eat and chain smoke, well didnt do much at maccas, just threw m&m's everywhere and ice creamed the walls, gawd i love that girl she is funny as.. then ash left and i went home and that brings me to right... now,
vanessa rng ash while i was waiting for the train with her, and she was like o0o0 did you have fun with annabel .. like in a bitchy voice, FUCK HER i feel so lmae sitting here waiting around for her to come back.. and it sucks ase, i did everything for that girl ya know.. i mean what thge fuck was it partly not my idea to get her a dog?.. fucking hell some ppl are so ungratefull.. im not going to bring up about how much money, alchol, smokes, clothes i bought her because i did that shit to her because she was my best friend and i adored our friendship.. so i am not cut about that..
she cannot treat ppl the way that she does becuase for one she has made feel like utter fucking shit, i bet she is just sitting there htink YES i finally got rid of her, did she even like me at all?
maybe i am thinking too much about it. but i saw her at the station today and she was so rude to me... and then started telling yana about how she is getting her libret peirced next week.. what the fuck man, me and here were spose to get her libret and my lip peirced and now ewell fuck yoiu.. she is getting it done and it felt like she was rubbing it my face.. all this shit bout.. "i need a break from you, dont be upset, i miss you" ok for 1] a break\? ii am not her fucking bitch it is a friendship not a relationshoip.. FUCK
2] dont be upset? how can someone not be upset by that.. she broke my fucking heart[in a friendship way ya know?]
and finally 3] she misses me yet she wants to be on a 'break'? get right
my week has been the worst..
and so i am losing one by one my friends.. they all just seem so pre-occupied.,. with new frined., new relationships, new crushes.. it fucked.. fine you guys can make new frineds i dont care but dont fucking forget about your old ones.. [ok i stle that lastline fro lee thanks!x]
so i feel so pathetic and lame about the whole hting.. it feels like fucking primary school all over again.. i want to chnage schools desperatly but my mum wont let me.. so i feel as if i just my quit school for the year and then she will want me at school cuz having a child out of school will damage her identity..
on a lighter note otmrrow shall be good.. meeting yaa at 11 then i am meeting jono for filming.. i hjust want to know what is wrong with me.. why do i drive ppl away..
i HATE the fact i write so much shit on this LJ.. i mean i must sound like the biggest emo fuck.. you guys must like scroll throuhg your friends list when it gets to mine.. you keep going.. heck, i would sccroll past my entrys.. i couldnt even undertsnad whsat i am talking about .. my fingers are to tired to even hit the right keys most of the time..
fuck this.. i am going to get drunk