voice within..

Jan 13, 2010 13:10

Before,
I kept on delaying my prayers,
The muadzin was calling,
The words of adzan echoed in my head,
I felt nothing,it was just the normal calling I have heard all my life.

But now,
The urge to pray on time is circulating in my brain,my heart approves,my body reacts
Adzan is not the usual beautiful voice,arabic words exiting the microphone speakers,breaking the silence,
Except now,it is interpreted as the calling of God,
to His beloved servants,
To bow,to kneel,to surrender,to ask,to cry,to hope,to meet,to love,to PRAY.

Before,
The duas I made were empty,meaningless,
My lips mumbled,my heart disconnected,
Without passion,without effort,without sincerity.

But now,
Hands join together, heart quivers, eyes wet
the lip murmurs,laments,admits humbly,cries for forgiveness,
asks for his Blessings,Guidance, Love.EARNESTLY

Before,
Reading Quran was like reading an academic journal,
Skipping it without guilty,the quran's right was not fulfilled,
My beautiful voice decorated the arabic words,
with my heart did not understand a single bit.

But Now,
Reciting Quran makes me shivers,
Thrilled to read the love letter from the ultimate Creator,
Mind is set at its pondering state,scrutinizing each word meticulously
Tears flow down voluntarily.
Beautiful.

Before,
Skies were blues on my eyes,
Clouds resembled the floating cotton candies,
The greenish trees supplied oxygen,
Refreshing.
Birds flying in the skies,fishes swimming in the sea,cats running around
Amazing.
Fascinating.
But heart cant relate.nothing.

But now,
I see the word Allah imprinted in the skies,
in the ray of light the sun emits,
in the drops of water the rain produces,
in the green leaves the trees bear
Ya Allah You are the Greatest.

O Allah, I am ashamed of myself.
I disobeyed,I neglected, I forgot You
yet I shamelessly breathed in the air You supplied,
I consumed the food You catered,
I drank the water You provided,
I enjoyed the beautiful scenery You decorated
Forgive Me Ya Allah.
Guide Me
Love Me

Ameen

"Temporary defines human's love,Everlasting defines Allah's love"

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