(no subject)

[wholeheartedly]

so this morning i had an interview with the CIA...yeah i know, hilarious really. needless to say i bombed that shit, i knew it was coming bc when they called i couldnt even remember that i had even signed up for the position. he grilled be about lots of things, and i learned what the job would really entailed. I was surprised, even though I shouldnt be bc really, it is the fucking CIA, but should they call me back for another interview (which they wont) and should i accept it (which i prolly wont) i would be a spy/work for spies abroad. people's lives would be in my hands, not only those of the spies but those of the citizans of that country. what if the mission is to get information to carry out a coups? i would have to do my job regardless of whether i thought it was beneficial for that country. i dont know if i can do that....so it is better that i bombed really.
why cant the fucking study abroad companies call me? seriously the CIA is interested but not them? jesus.

life is nuts.