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Why doesn't anyone ever want to be with a nice girl? And why is the word "nice" equated with "boring" ? I think girls like me are what every guy secretly wants.. but doesn't want to admit it. ;) HAHA maybe. I'd like to think so. Like in Juno, the highschool jock secretly wants the weird girl but goes with the norm.
I've been really lonely lately. I've been alone a lot too.. but I haven't been doing anything to change that. I guess when the one person you want to be with chooses not to spend their free time with you it feels like this.
Just in general, I want to be with someone who always wants to be with me.. who doesn't feel obligated to kiss me or call me his girlfriend. I just miss the way young love feels, I guess. I haven't been able to express how I've felt since coming home.. like there's not a word that describes it accurately. I guess "hopeless" is pretty close, though. This island drains everything from you.. hapiness, hope, faith, determination - all your goals just vanish and you settle for a mediocore job with health benefits.
I guess, that will be me. Destined for mediocrity.
Why won't I stop it?
To be honest, I guess I'm scared of failing miserably. What happens if I never reach my goals? What happens if I put myself out there only to be criticized? I guess I haven't changed that much, after all.
I've been really lonely lately. I've been alone a lot too.. but I haven't been doing anything to change that. I guess when the one person you want to be with chooses not to spend their free time with you it feels like this.
Just in general, I want to be with someone who always wants to be with me.. who doesn't feel obligated to kiss me or call me his girlfriend. I just miss the way young love feels, I guess. I haven't been able to express how I've felt since coming home.. like there's not a word that describes it accurately. I guess "hopeless" is pretty close, though. This island drains everything from you.. hapiness, hope, faith, determination - all your goals just vanish and you settle for a mediocore job with health benefits.
I guess, that will be me. Destined for mediocrity.
Why won't I stop it?
To be honest, I guess I'm scared of failing miserably. What happens if I never reach my goals? What happens if I put myself out there only to be criticized? I guess I haven't changed that much, after all.