"Opportunity may knock only once, but temptation leans on the doorbell."
A good friend pointed something out to me a couple of days ago. Actually, it was more like a spur of the moment comment that definitely shouldn't have been said, but that's besides the point. The point is that I've been thinking about that lately...more than I already was before. I realized that I was trying not to think about it or make it seem obvious because it's definitely something that shouldn't be happening. It's something that has caused me, as well as others, so much trouble in the past that it happening again would be totally uncalled for. I guess it's just hard to know that certain things are happening, but then you want the complete opposite to happen. I don't kow if it sounds harsh, but there are times in a persons life when harsh is all they can be. And deep inside I know that I'm being totally selfish about this situation, but I guess that I've come to a point in my life where when it comes to certain things I might as well be selfish. Because truthfully who knows when an opportunity like this will happen again. Obviously no one does, which is exactly why I'd feel no remorese for what I've come to realize. But ofcourse under the circumstances of who this deals with, what I want is definitely besides the point.
It's like perfection is within my reach, but for some reason I can't get a hold of it.