finally
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i have not posted about myself in awhile
sorry that this is a public post, i just feel like getting it out there is better than keeping it in...
i believe i am finally through with this self destruction phase. i don't know how i'm still alive after saturday, but it's better. i went out last night with someone who made me very happy to talk to. it was the first time i've been happy in 7 weeks. this will continue. my body is still fucked up from the other night and my mind will be for awhile, but at least i won't be talking to those that trigger me. i feel like i've been disrespected in such a deep way, especially given my situation and the current situation's history. my only defense was to disrespect back. only i wasn't just disrespecting the two people i intended to, i disrespected everyone else and more importantly, the idea of life itself. after what's happened over the last week and a half, that was completely unacceptable. i was in between life and death (literally), with the option to just "take one more" and be over with it in the cornfield, and i'm glad i chose my life. sorry to be cocky, overly optomistic, w/e, but i have a fucking shitload going for me.
u of i
les harvard
spring break
prom
graduation
bonnaroo
u2
a million other shows
so many new albums to look forward to (weezer, DMB, foo fighters, coldplay, NIN, etc.)
my life
new people
the list goes on...
once again, thanks to everyone who's been concerned. i know you all care, i'm sorry i've put you through some of the shit i have. hands down, roughest 7 weeks of my life, and many others. let's hope for a brighter end to our run here in high school...
one last time, i love you
justin
i have not posted about myself in awhile
sorry that this is a public post, i just feel like getting it out there is better than keeping it in...
i believe i am finally through with this self destruction phase. i don't know how i'm still alive after saturday, but it's better. i went out last night with someone who made me very happy to talk to. it was the first time i've been happy in 7 weeks. this will continue. my body is still fucked up from the other night and my mind will be for awhile, but at least i won't be talking to those that trigger me. i feel like i've been disrespected in such a deep way, especially given my situation and the current situation's history. my only defense was to disrespect back. only i wasn't just disrespecting the two people i intended to, i disrespected everyone else and more importantly, the idea of life itself. after what's happened over the last week and a half, that was completely unacceptable. i was in between life and death (literally), with the option to just "take one more" and be over with it in the cornfield, and i'm glad i chose my life. sorry to be cocky, overly optomistic, w/e, but i have a fucking shitload going for me.
u of i
les harvard
spring break
prom
graduation
bonnaroo
u2
a million other shows
so many new albums to look forward to (weezer, DMB, foo fighters, coldplay, NIN, etc.)
my life
new people
the list goes on...
once again, thanks to everyone who's been concerned. i know you all care, i'm sorry i've put you through some of the shit i have. hands down, roughest 7 weeks of my life, and many others. let's hope for a brighter end to our run here in high school...
one last time, i love you
justin