i'm back.. again.

[whokilledsaruh]

I haven't updated in a while. i apologize. a lot has gone on. Brandon and i are officially apart.. since then i've spent my time on rebound. hint: it doesnt make anything better. i work at taco bell now, which is a small slice of hell; yet without it i wouldnt get up in the morning so it is like hell with the face of jesus. I'm lonely. I'm so lonely i cant stand it sometimes. I dont know this girl who i've morphed into. I somehow dropped off my entire identity somewhere along the road. I just wanted to get as far away as possible from "brandons saruh.." i think i got for away from everything else too. I would give up everything to be happy again.. to feel human again. I have one emotion: Living. I wish i were infinite.

i will write soon.