sigh...let's try this again...
so this is my second time to try and write this entry.
the first one got deleted.
here i go again.
today was long. it was my 4th working day in a row.
i can get used to that, but it will take some time.
i start 5 days a week next week. 6am-2pm.
thats a long day. i think i might be taking on too much.
but i need the money. gas is expensive. mission trips are expensive. college will be expensive.
i like being on days. it's nice. it goes by super fast. its just a lot of work.
i came home and slept today from 4-9. it was nice. not long enough, but it was nice.
i didn't know that at 17, my feet could hurt so bad, my knees could throb as much as they do, and that i could ever be so tired.
on to other things besides work, because i don't have to work until tuesday :) thank goodness for random days off.
i've been thinking alot. about life.
the only way to describe it in indescribeable.
there are a lot of really short thoughts in here to night. and no capitol letters. i think it kind of makes it unoffcial. kind of like how i feel at the moment. my thoughts aren't really finnished...and i feel unfinnished.
i was doing good for a while. but work gives me lots of time to think. and sometimes that's not good.
almost all of my friends are dating. and i'm extremly happy for them. i really really am. i just wish i had someone. i really do. i just want someone to hold me in their arms and make me feel safe.
sigh. i guess all in due time.
well, i'm off to bed. it's been a long week.
the first one got deleted.
here i go again.
today was long. it was my 4th working day in a row.
i can get used to that, but it will take some time.
i start 5 days a week next week. 6am-2pm.
thats a long day. i think i might be taking on too much.
but i need the money. gas is expensive. mission trips are expensive. college will be expensive.
i like being on days. it's nice. it goes by super fast. its just a lot of work.
i came home and slept today from 4-9. it was nice. not long enough, but it was nice.
i didn't know that at 17, my feet could hurt so bad, my knees could throb as much as they do, and that i could ever be so tired.
on to other things besides work, because i don't have to work until tuesday :) thank goodness for random days off.
i've been thinking alot. about life.
the only way to describe it in indescribeable.
there are a lot of really short thoughts in here to night. and no capitol letters. i think it kind of makes it unoffcial. kind of like how i feel at the moment. my thoughts aren't really finnished...and i feel unfinnished.
i was doing good for a while. but work gives me lots of time to think. and sometimes that's not good.
almost all of my friends are dating. and i'm extremly happy for them. i really really am. i just wish i had someone. i really do. i just want someone to hold me in their arms and make me feel safe.
sigh. i guess all in due time.
well, i'm off to bed. it's been a long week.