update.. yet again
I went out Friday and got too drunk... walking to and from work is doing alot for me.... I got two pins tonight which I am ba bam proud of .... as gay as that sounds it's very hard to get one let alone two. I got a twenty dollar tip tonight... so that makes me proud too....
Work is becoming less social... which I guess is good... more just there to make money and leave.. makes the time go by slower..... I went out last night and had three people literally ask me over for sex in manyyy different ways... all were drunk and all were turned down... I can't be sleeping around... especially if I want to find someone of quality.... some disagree I don't know...
I miss Vincent... I miss alot of people... I am becoming more of a loner I guess... I don't think I will ever miss Gabe it's been so long since I have appreciated being around him that I can barely remember how a good friend he was.... I miss Justin alot.... we match well.... I expect we will get closer and closer.... We fight... but who doesn't.
I see myself maturing if that is possible..... I think I am... I see what I want... and am either working or waiting for it.... There are things I am seeing that I regret (some more obvious then others)... I sometimes think I could still get the things... and even relationships, that I have wanted... but I seem to bury myself before I even climb the ladder. I am not unhappy.... not estatic though. Life is a Chutes and Ladder game (notice I said ladders twice... lol must be on the brain).... some ups some downs... just take it as it goes.... and just stay with it until you get to candylane (you know that will be a bumpersticker some day!) I use my ipod when I walk.... that passes the time (it's not e ven a long walk)....
Joey and David are cool..... Joey fixed my computer.... David.... is really flirty.... I spent the night in his room the night I first moved in... I think he was thinking I wanted a relationship so now its still (even af ter it's more than a week later) sweety and cutie, little comments and stuff.... It doesn't bother me but it kinda scares me...
I do want to date... almost twenty... urg...
G'nite all
tante baci
Work is becoming less social... which I guess is good... more just there to make money and leave.. makes the time go by slower..... I went out last night and had three people literally ask me over for sex in manyyy different ways... all were drunk and all were turned down... I can't be sleeping around... especially if I want to find someone of quality.... some disagree I don't know...
I miss Vincent... I miss alot of people... I am becoming more of a loner I guess... I don't think I will ever miss Gabe it's been so long since I have appreciated being around him that I can barely remember how a good friend he was.... I miss Justin alot.... we match well.... I expect we will get closer and closer.... We fight... but who doesn't.
I see myself maturing if that is possible..... I think I am... I see what I want... and am either working or waiting for it.... There are things I am seeing that I regret (some more obvious then others)... I sometimes think I could still get the things... and even relationships, that I have wanted... but I seem to bury myself before I even climb the ladder. I am not unhappy.... not estatic though. Life is a Chutes and Ladder game (notice I said ladders twice... lol must be on the brain).... some ups some downs... just take it as it goes.... and just stay with it until you get to candylane (you know that will be a bumpersticker some day!) I use my ipod when I walk.... that passes the time (it's not e ven a long walk)....
Joey and David are cool..... Joey fixed my computer.... David.... is really flirty.... I spent the night in his room the night I first moved in... I think he was thinking I wanted a relationship so now its still (even af ter it's more than a week later) sweety and cutie, little comments and stuff.... It doesn't bother me but it kinda scares me...
I do want to date... almost twenty... urg...
G'nite all
tante baci