Howdy..
I know you won't come back,
everything that was;
Time has left it behind.
I know that you won't return.
What happened between us
will never be repeated.
A thousand years will never reach me
to fade you away and forget.
And now I'm here,
Trying to turn valleys into cities
Mixing the Sky and the Sea.
I know I let you escape,
I know I lost you.
Nothing can be the same;
A millenium can reach
so you can fade away.
Chorus:
I'm here, loving you,
suffocating,
in photographs and scrapbooks,
in objects and momentos.
I can't comprehend,
I'm driving myself mad.
Changing a foot for
my own face;
This night for a day.
And there's nothing I can do about it.
The letters I wrote,
I never sent.
You didn't want to know of me.
I can't understand
how foolish I was;
It's all the matter of time and faith.
A millenium with another thousand years...
are enough to love
(RepeatChorus)
If you still think something of me...
You know I'm still waiting for you...
(Repeat Chorus)
Been doing well and fiqured I would start writing in this thing again..... I go out most all tuesdays night... lol to karoke... I have yet to sing, but it's alot of fun most of the time. It was last night especially.... I hang with Vincent alot.
Well, I am moving out, with my friends Joey and David, Mike is moving to New York City for his job. It's more in rent but it includes everything, so all together it's cheaper. It's closer to my work and that's better. Things are getting better. I went to a pageant hmm sunday.... the person I want to win didn't but It was fun. Drama like always with people when I really don't think it's a big deal. The dating scene... I think I am going to be single for a very long time.... sometimes that bothers me sometimes it doesn't... I would rather be sorta happy and single then really happy then really depressed then really happy then raelly depressed... Who knows... Time will tell...
Work urg yesterday wasn't npleasent but I got a gift card for putting up with people's crap, had to leave late too, I was pissed at Ryan the manager for a short time but realized he didn't really ahve any other choices and he is alwasy good to me anyway.
I saw Jakob out, Houston's friend (and Beaux) actually he was happy, I sat down and talked to him he said it was good to talk about thigns like this... He was fine and I kidna got all emotional... lol not crying or anything.. just thinking about if anyone around me commited sucided I would have taken it alot worse... I think alot better of him for this.
I have been getting asked out an average pace, Vincent says I need to take people up on their offers, but I don't know.... I don't know if I should wait for someone that is just amazing... or maybe they are hiding behind a person who is asking me out.... There are alittle quirks that bother me that I try to ignore. I think that it shouldn't bother me yet they do..
Gabe has a friend... he's actually cute, nice, and seemingly smart.. ( yeah I know)... Gabe's seems to be a better person for him let's just hope that he stays that way for along time...
Today I am off... cleaning and god knows what I will do....
everything that was;
Time has left it behind.
I know that you won't return.
What happened between us
will never be repeated.
A thousand years will never reach me
to fade you away and forget.
And now I'm here,
Trying to turn valleys into cities
Mixing the Sky and the Sea.
I know I let you escape,
I know I lost you.
Nothing can be the same;
A millenium can reach
so you can fade away.
Chorus:
I'm here, loving you,
suffocating,
in photographs and scrapbooks,
in objects and momentos.
I can't comprehend,
I'm driving myself mad.
Changing a foot for
my own face;
This night for a day.
And there's nothing I can do about it.
The letters I wrote,
I never sent.
You didn't want to know of me.
I can't understand
how foolish I was;
It's all the matter of time and faith.
A millenium with another thousand years...
are enough to love
(RepeatChorus)
If you still think something of me...
You know I'm still waiting for you...
(Repeat Chorus)
Been doing well and fiqured I would start writing in this thing again..... I go out most all tuesdays night... lol to karoke... I have yet to sing, but it's alot of fun most of the time. It was last night especially.... I hang with Vincent alot.
Well, I am moving out, with my friends Joey and David, Mike is moving to New York City for his job. It's more in rent but it includes everything, so all together it's cheaper. It's closer to my work and that's better. Things are getting better. I went to a pageant hmm sunday.... the person I want to win didn't but It was fun. Drama like always with people when I really don't think it's a big deal. The dating scene... I think I am going to be single for a very long time.... sometimes that bothers me sometimes it doesn't... I would rather be sorta happy and single then really happy then really depressed then really happy then raelly depressed... Who knows... Time will tell...
Work urg yesterday wasn't npleasent but I got a gift card for putting up with people's crap, had to leave late too, I was pissed at Ryan the manager for a short time but realized he didn't really ahve any other choices and he is alwasy good to me anyway.
I saw Jakob out, Houston's friend (and Beaux) actually he was happy, I sat down and talked to him he said it was good to talk about thigns like this... He was fine and I kidna got all emotional... lol not crying or anything.. just thinking about if anyone around me commited sucided I would have taken it alot worse... I think alot better of him for this.
I have been getting asked out an average pace, Vincent says I need to take people up on their offers, but I don't know.... I don't know if I should wait for someone that is just amazing... or maybe they are hiding behind a person who is asking me out.... There are alittle quirks that bother me that I try to ignore. I think that it shouldn't bother me yet they do..
Gabe has a friend... he's actually cute, nice, and seemingly smart.. ( yeah I know)... Gabe's seems to be a better person for him let's just hope that he stays that way for along time...
Today I am off... cleaning and god knows what I will do....