an update
Lots have been happening.
-It's almost the end of school and all my final projects are pretty much FINITO, so I am just relaxing around...
-I have been feeling overwhelmingly creative lately, but quickly found out that merely feeling that way doesn't mean you will be.
-The Gentlemen's club called me to DJ tonight (hahha, bitches) and I picked up a quick 60 bucks. Now that I have money, I plan on:
1. Going to Festival Internationale (starting TOMORROW!!!!) and is one of the coolest fests EVER. For the last 3 years I have been walking around in loose clothing, on dim summer nights in sandals, walking around sipping wine and talking to all the free spirits out there. It's grand. I can't wait.
2. Spend some more cash drinking to celebrate my leaving Lafayette. Goodbye Kaboose.
3. Paying Cathy back.
I also want to say to myself and no one else, that sex with Kristen is the best I ever had and I can't stop thinking about it. Maybe it is because all my life I was the fat, nice guy who never got girls, much less attractive ones like Kristen. I wish I could have been in highschool what I am now, or at least, should I say, have the confidence now. SOmetimes I look at other decently attractive people who could be having fruitful, fun, happy lives with the opposite sex but are not, sheerly out of lack of confidence and fear. It will be they, when they are old, who have regrets. Everytime something like Kristen happens to me, I know when I get old, I'll smile and remember amazing, fun things.
and that...yes, that...makes me fucking happy.
-It's almost the end of school and all my final projects are pretty much FINITO, so I am just relaxing around...
-I have been feeling overwhelmingly creative lately, but quickly found out that merely feeling that way doesn't mean you will be.
-The Gentlemen's club called me to DJ tonight (hahha, bitches) and I picked up a quick 60 bucks. Now that I have money, I plan on:
1. Going to Festival Internationale (starting TOMORROW!!!!) and is one of the coolest fests EVER. For the last 3 years I have been walking around in loose clothing, on dim summer nights in sandals, walking around sipping wine and talking to all the free spirits out there. It's grand. I can't wait.
2. Spend some more cash drinking to celebrate my leaving Lafayette. Goodbye Kaboose.
3. Paying Cathy back.
I also want to say to myself and no one else, that sex with Kristen is the best I ever had and I can't stop thinking about it. Maybe it is because all my life I was the fat, nice guy who never got girls, much less attractive ones like Kristen. I wish I could have been in highschool what I am now, or at least, should I say, have the confidence now. SOmetimes I look at other decently attractive people who could be having fruitful, fun, happy lives with the opposite sex but are not, sheerly out of lack of confidence and fear. It will be they, when they are old, who have regrets. Everytime something like Kristen happens to me, I know when I get old, I'll smile and remember amazing, fun things.
and that...yes, that...makes me fucking happy.