crying sucks
Ever had one of those days
when things get worse and worse?
It starts off bad
And goes downhill?
Fuck it
Lets see
Seemed like something was wrong
with me and liz..1st hour
2nd...Neils a fuckin idiot
I had trust in him
Even if he told something small
Its the point that matters.
After 2nd. .
Neil tells anthony
Fuckin asshole
3rd...was kinda mad @ anthony. .
No big deal though
Least of my worries
Apparently Ivan tells anthony Borter
Shit that he shouldnt have
Anthony calls me a lieing bitch.
Keenan says "anthonys still mad @ u"
No way! i didnt know that..fuckin fag
Lunch....
Told neil we could end friendship
took myself of his friends phone list.
Told him i was done
He didnt take me seriously
4th...
Mad
Wrote note to amber
Wrote note to neil
This time i was clear
Our friendship was over
5th
PE SUCKED
Dylan was weird
Thought about Neil
Fucked up day
Still fucked
After 5th..
Neil and me dont talk
Neil gives me a note
(in reply to my hate note)
Interesting
Felt bad about the anthony byland thing
Still do
6th
Close to crying
Thats unlike me
Chloe..Rachel..Sara noticed
That was fucked
Wrote back to Neil
Went on livejournal
Saw what anthony said
made things worse
SCHOOL ENDED
After school
Didnt want to hang out by neil and Anthony
Hung with John
John left
Had no choice but to hang with them
Didnt talk to anthony..or tried not to
Neil wrote back to note
Me and liz are fine
Brandons being helpful
Still fucked.
Later...
Find out erica hates me
i lie too much
Fuck it
Thankful Daniel told me
Fucked up alot of things
I know Lizeth hates me
Nothing new
Fuck it
I feel bad about Anthony
I feel bad about telling anyone
I wanted to fix our friendship
Didnt happen
Got worse
I keep fucking up
I dont know what to do
Why is it so hard to keep friends?
Why do things keep getting worse and worse?
Please help me
please
How much did i fuck up this time? anthony be honest