whirlwind week
This has been a whirlwind of a week. I honestly can not believe how fast it went. This has had to be one of the fastest weeks I have ever experienced, probably because I was both looking forward to it and dreading it. Friday may 9, was my last day of classes and today, Saturday may 10, is my prom. I honestly can not believe how fast these past four years have gone by! After four years my high school has become like my family-especially since it’s so small and since most of my family lives in another state. I wonder how people who’ve been to Moravian all their lives feel. Well one kid Carlos seems like he can’t wait to get out because he’s tired of seeing the same faces over and over again. But it’s crazy how fast these past four years have gone. I still can’t believe that classes are officially over. My mind hasn’t grasped that. It probably won’t grasp that until Monday since tonight is prom and Sunday I have to write two essays, but during senior assembly on Monday I think it’s going to hit me.
But this week has been really good. I brought a new camera on Sunday and have been using it to capture the memories. On Wednesday I went to New York City to watch all African American production of the Broadway play, A Cat on a Hot Tin Roof. It had the actress who played Mrs. Huxable on the Cosby show. It was good. I was really depressed that day though. I felt so alone. And it was weird because the teacher who I had a crush on and his wife was there and I felt awkward and she totally looked over me one time because I was just so quiet. It was weird because I was afraid she might know I had a crush on her husband even though the crush doesn’t really mean anything, since I constantly have crushes on my teachers. Plus I have never even talked to her in my life. But when I saw her interact with the other students she seemed really nice and she has a really pretty voice. And she has blond hair and possibly blue eyes. I still have a thing for blonde hair and blue eyed people. Also on the fieldtrip as we entered the city we saw a guy who had been hit by a car sitting on the street, a cop standing over him, and the lady who had hit him crying and looking all worried. It was so weird because we were all just gawking. I found it weird but it also is human nature. There really wasn’t anything we could do. We just had to keep moving forward. And apparently my friend Lauren had seen someone get shot on that street where the guy was hit by a car. I couldn’t help but wonder how she must have felt about that, how she was dealing with that…I know that’s random.
Monday was the last after school “study” session I had with Mrs. Beckbriggs-she’s become like a friend to me- and Kristy. We had so much fun. We got pizza and took it back to school, we talked, we took pictures, and (or rather Kristy and I took pics.) It was fun. We ranted, we laughed. We listened to my favorite parody in the world, the parody to James’s Blunt’s “Beautiful” called, “She was beautiful…I swear.”
In Mr. Molloy’s class this week, we didn’t really do anything and by anything I mean really English-drama related. We watched the movie “six degrees of separation” but we mostly had a good time just talking. We talked about the meaning of life- Mr. Molloy doesn’t believe there really is one. We talked about sports. Today we talked about college. He was talking about one of his fav professors. And how he would get 200 hours of sleep a semester because he would stay up reading. He would re-read the books for each of his classes even if he had read them 20 times. Today two of the juniors Katie and Laurie brought cupcakes. I took pics, not of Mr. Molloy I was too much of a chicken. But Hilary did. I may ask her if I could steal them. But I did of course take pics of some of the students. We talked about our fears. Emily S said she was afraid of ending up alone and of getting “lost” emotionally.
Even though I may not remember what we specifically did, or what was specifically said, I think I will remember how I really loved the class and how the class made me feel. At the beginning of the year I was freaking out. I felt vulnerable not good enough, I still felt like that, but I also felt happy, and safe.
I’m crying now. It just hit me. I won’t have another day in Mr. Molloy’s drama class or in any other class. It hits me the most though in his class because I felt so safe there even though I was prettified of saying something stupid. I know that doesn’t make sense, but I had so much fun in there. Listening to others, getting to know other people, hearing Mr. Molloy’s stories and funny jokes. Marisa walking out on the class., Vishal’s priceless lines, “What’s better than one hot girl? Two hot girls. It’s simple math. Math never lies. ”
I’ll miss Caldwell’s history class, the movies and his ramblings and funny jokes. I’ll miss all of my classes. I’ll miss arguing with Sean in playwriting. And earlier this year, jazzierzing in gym class with Emily. Ugh. I can’t believe this year is over. But I know, there’s still more memories to be made with prom tomorrow and senior assembly and post term.
Friday night was awesome though. I definitely made some memories. I went to my friend Nallo’s party. She used to go to MA but she transferred in the middle of junior year. I had an amazing time. It was at a science center and we were able to play with all the cool things they had. There even was a sort of “petting zoo” except the animals were underwater sea creatures. I touched a weird animal but freaked out and I ended up getting water on my friend Rachel, she was so annoyed with me. I also hung out with people I haven’t really been able to hang out with, like Caity, Marisa-well we hung out in gym class but never outside of school and we had fun. I took so many pics. There was this station where we could pretend to be weather girls and would show up on a TV screen, Marisa and I had so much fun pretending to be weather girls and making fun of one another. Not even my mom’s dramatics before the party could ruin how I felt. I had so much fun. Even before the party, when my friend Lacy picked me up I had fun because I was able to rant with her and we talked. I also brought the Miley Cyrus CD, that may sound like it doesn’t belong in this paragraph but I brought it because today Emily S and Mo were listening and singing to her song, “see you again” and I got the song stuck in my head so I brought it. Now when I hear the song I will think of them and also lacy since we had so much fun singing along. It.
Well I had so much fun, but I know prom will be awesome. Especially since I will be hanging out with my best friend since I was like 12 or something. So I’m really excited.
But this week has been really good. I brought a new camera on Sunday and have been using it to capture the memories. On Wednesday I went to New York City to watch all African American production of the Broadway play, A Cat on a Hot Tin Roof. It had the actress who played Mrs. Huxable on the Cosby show. It was good. I was really depressed that day though. I felt so alone. And it was weird because the teacher who I had a crush on and his wife was there and I felt awkward and she totally looked over me one time because I was just so quiet. It was weird because I was afraid she might know I had a crush on her husband even though the crush doesn’t really mean anything, since I constantly have crushes on my teachers. Plus I have never even talked to her in my life. But when I saw her interact with the other students she seemed really nice and she has a really pretty voice. And she has blond hair and possibly blue eyes. I still have a thing for blonde hair and blue eyed people. Also on the fieldtrip as we entered the city we saw a guy who had been hit by a car sitting on the street, a cop standing over him, and the lady who had hit him crying and looking all worried. It was so weird because we were all just gawking. I found it weird but it also is human nature. There really wasn’t anything we could do. We just had to keep moving forward. And apparently my friend Lauren had seen someone get shot on that street where the guy was hit by a car. I couldn’t help but wonder how she must have felt about that, how she was dealing with that…I know that’s random.
Monday was the last after school “study” session I had with Mrs. Beckbriggs-she’s become like a friend to me- and Kristy. We had so much fun. We got pizza and took it back to school, we talked, we took pictures, and (or rather Kristy and I took pics.) It was fun. We ranted, we laughed. We listened to my favorite parody in the world, the parody to James’s Blunt’s “Beautiful” called, “She was beautiful…I swear.”
In Mr. Molloy’s class this week, we didn’t really do anything and by anything I mean really English-drama related. We watched the movie “six degrees of separation” but we mostly had a good time just talking. We talked about the meaning of life- Mr. Molloy doesn’t believe there really is one. We talked about sports. Today we talked about college. He was talking about one of his fav professors. And how he would get 200 hours of sleep a semester because he would stay up reading. He would re-read the books for each of his classes even if he had read them 20 times. Today two of the juniors Katie and Laurie brought cupcakes. I took pics, not of Mr. Molloy I was too much of a chicken. But Hilary did. I may ask her if I could steal them. But I did of course take pics of some of the students. We talked about our fears. Emily S said she was afraid of ending up alone and of getting “lost” emotionally.
Even though I may not remember what we specifically did, or what was specifically said, I think I will remember how I really loved the class and how the class made me feel. At the beginning of the year I was freaking out. I felt vulnerable not good enough, I still felt like that, but I also felt happy, and safe.
I’m crying now. It just hit me. I won’t have another day in Mr. Molloy’s drama class or in any other class. It hits me the most though in his class because I felt so safe there even though I was prettified of saying something stupid. I know that doesn’t make sense, but I had so much fun in there. Listening to others, getting to know other people, hearing Mr. Molloy’s stories and funny jokes. Marisa walking out on the class., Vishal’s priceless lines, “What’s better than one hot girl? Two hot girls. It’s simple math. Math never lies. ”
I’ll miss Caldwell’s history class, the movies and his ramblings and funny jokes. I’ll miss all of my classes. I’ll miss arguing with Sean in playwriting. And earlier this year, jazzierzing in gym class with Emily. Ugh. I can’t believe this year is over. But I know, there’s still more memories to be made with prom tomorrow and senior assembly and post term.
Friday night was awesome though. I definitely made some memories. I went to my friend Nallo’s party. She used to go to MA but she transferred in the middle of junior year. I had an amazing time. It was at a science center and we were able to play with all the cool things they had. There even was a sort of “petting zoo” except the animals were underwater sea creatures. I touched a weird animal but freaked out and I ended up getting water on my friend Rachel, she was so annoyed with me. I also hung out with people I haven’t really been able to hang out with, like Caity, Marisa-well we hung out in gym class but never outside of school and we had fun. I took so many pics. There was this station where we could pretend to be weather girls and would show up on a TV screen, Marisa and I had so much fun pretending to be weather girls and making fun of one another. Not even my mom’s dramatics before the party could ruin how I felt. I had so much fun. Even before the party, when my friend Lacy picked me up I had fun because I was able to rant with her and we talked. I also brought the Miley Cyrus CD, that may sound like it doesn’t belong in this paragraph but I brought it because today Emily S and Mo were listening and singing to her song, “see you again” and I got the song stuck in my head so I brought it. Now when I hear the song I will think of them and also lacy since we had so much fun singing along. It.
Well I had so much fun, but I know prom will be awesome. Especially since I will be hanging out with my best friend since I was like 12 or something. So I’m really excited.